Breezin down the freeway just me and my baby, in our ride // Just me and my boss no worries at all ♥

Tried out the new design stuff on blogger... but I can't get the date tab above the posts to change from that red to transparent :( ugh.

I have to work at 3 and I know we're going to be BUSY tonight. I'm there till midnight and I'm sure it's going to suck. :(

It's weird saying and thinking I have a 'hubby' or I'm a 'Mrs' :) Still getting used to it.
Hubby didn't get Recruiter's Assistant, kinda sucks. No it really sucks. Because this week has been... I can't even explain. Just not how it should have been and he'll be gone for 2 months? This sucks.

I'm so tired. I want to post all the pics from Parris Island, Fam day, and graduation. But I feel so blah and out of it. I should be jumping off the walls with happiness because he's home and we GOT MARRIED! But I feel like I haven't seen him this week. Like we didn't talk except for the days we were at the cabin. When we get home at night we're so tired we fall asleep immediately, or when we're out there's always people around talking to him. It's like I didn't get any alone time. No time to talk about important things. Or even to just lay and cuddle together. And tomorrow I'm sure will be hell. His mom has some picnic planned and he has to get all his uniforms together and all his stuff and I think say bye to people he didn't get to see.  It's going to be busy and I just want time to stop and us to be ALONE. I don't even care if we talk I just want to BE HELD.

♥
whatev.

Day 36 [Wishing for a Letter]

So, its 12:11... and the mail is STILL not here! I understand the holiday threw it off, but she still only has the same number off houses to visit as normal, just a few more envelopes for those boxes... so why is it almost 2 hours late? Being impatient makes this so much harder. And on top of that the anxiety is getting to me. =\ Also, I have new stress -- from work.


I looked at the new schedule up yesterday, I only have 25 hours that week. ??? I can't afford to lose my health benefits and I'm a full time worker not part time. I understand it may be a mistake, but she's going to hear about. Its the second time this year and the first time she didn't apologize either. Luckily someone needed a day covered and I ended up getting 39 hours that week. I asked Colleen at work if I could take a day from her on that week. I have bills and with me paying my car out of pocket- that's thousands of dollars... I can't not work full time. I was going to call before I came in and ask her if there was a problem with me or something, I know there's not but she's going to own up to this. She told she'll 'punish' us but cutting our hours. Well, what did I do? I want to fucking know. And if she doesn't let me have Colleen's day, I WILL use my vacay hours and if she doesn't, I'll call the fucking office. I'm so sick of their shit. I feel constantly disrespected, undermined, not wanted. I will tell her flat out if there's a problem, I will gladly transfer to get out of whoever's hair. I can't believe this is happening. I might cry.


I thought I heard the mail truck, but think I'm imagining things. I also should get my stuff from Best Buy today, but the UPS guy hasn't come yet. I don't want to work. I'm on day 3 of 8. This sucks. 




I want my babe home.
♥

Day 29 [Love has a curious way of finding its way through oceans and skies; distance is never a barrier.]

Got a letter from Pat today. It was from three days, combined. They were obviously busy last week. Apparently he had pneumonia and didn't tell me. He's doing fine though! He sounds happy and content. He talked about all the pt'ing and obstacle course kicked his ass but he did well. He also told me about what he eats and how he realizes all the things he takes for granted down there. And how he reminisces to himself about me and about all the things were going to do =) It was a nice letter. Swim week started today, and I hope he's doing good. He was nervous about the floating. But Shuler had informed us that its not normal floating. They wear these jackets and they blow them up and they have to float for a few minutes or something and you just keep blowing into the jacket. Pat will be fine, I know it.

On a bad note: I lost Pat's letter from the other day. The REALLY GOOD one =( I had it on the bed shelves the other night because I was going to read it before I fell asleep and decided I was too tired. I left it there, like I always do, and now its missing. I'm really upset because it was the best letter I've received and it had all the things I needed to hear in it. I'm so upset. I don't remember putting it anywhere else and the only other place could have been my gym bag. (I take it to work with me and sometimes I think I'll want to read the letters on break, although I never do) But I really don't remember putting it in there! I'm so pissed at myself. Hopefully it'll turn up.

I have to work today and I don't want to. I think I've been complaining about not wanting to work a lot because its always the same shift. 3 to midnight. And I never get a break from it! Everyone else gets 4-10s, 3-10, 6-2am, but I'm stuck with 3-12s the whole month?? UGH. And then to make matters worse, for whatever reason I was scheduled EIGHT days in a row... they're ALL TILL MIDNIGHT. Really now? What exactly did I do to deserve that. Uhm, I'll tell you. NOTHING. Because I bust my ass at that place and they're lucky they have an employee like me. I'm so pissed. I really hate them.

I'm gonna get ready for work.
[Good luck to the recruits of platoon 2058 on their first day of swim quals!]

Day 16 [Staying Strong]

I didn't get a letter today. :( I hope he's gotten some of mine. I'm so frustrated. I had to write a letter. But I'm going to save it for a couple days. I really don't have extra money to buy another book of stamps right now, so I don't want to go through them too fast. Plus I wrote Uncle Eddie and Freddie to tell them about Pat. So I've gone through 3 stamps already! Haha... who knew the mailbox would become my best friend?

I still haven't gotten a call from Preston saying my cars done. Which is a little scary because he said it wouldn't take but maybe a week to do. Unless they didn't work on it during the weekend? Idk... I just want my beamer back! :(

I have to work today. I don't really want to. Its till midnight and that always sucks.

I ordered some stuff from CafePress! I got a cute Marine Corps tote bag and a zip-up hoodie with semper fi on the back. Its really cute, hopefully it fits. I think it was a JR size... oops.

I'm exhausted and I just woke up haha... I probably should eat some fruit or something! Hopefully I get a letter tomorrow!

[Good luck to the guys in plt 2058 today!!♥]
-Jessi

Day 11 ♥

I just got done doing my bills and I feel good about them, for once! I'm starting to pay a few down and I'm so happy I'm making bigger payments. Before I couldn't because of my paycheck being split into two different accounts. But now that I changed that I'm able to actually put a dent in my balances. Its a great feeling. I also counted the exact days I've been smoke free and it has been... 125 days!!! I'm very happy about that also and glad I haven't given into any urges! I didn't get a letter from Pat yet, maybe tomorrow ::crossingfingers!::

I was going to go to the Y before work at 3 but I think I'm going to clean out the inside of Pat's truck. He never got to do it before he left and I don't want his mom thinking I did it when I give it back to her. Which hopefully should be Monday or Tuesday. I probably should get started on that soon, otherwise I know I won't do it :) As much as I want Mom and Ash to come back from Florida, I really like having the house to myself! Its a little lonely at times but its peaceful. When they get home I'm sure I'll go see Ash a lot. Well maybe, driving all the way to Alliance will hurt my gas fund and usually I would get so tired I couldn't drive and Pat would have to-- every time. So I'm not sure about all that but maybe.

I'm going to go get some things done.
i♥pat
--Jessi

Day 6 [real bad.]

I don't know what it is today. But its real bad. And I keep making it worse by thinking of all kinds of other things, too. I think I'm going to make myself sick until I get a letter from him. That has to be what it is. Maybe this week will go fast, real fast.

I went to the Y after work today. I did an elliptical for 30 mins and then walked the track. I didn't keep track of how many times... I was there a while. Just walking and thinking. Then I did the sauna for 10 mins straight. Although that really didn't do anything, I felt good afterward. And my phone started to get hot. I guess Pat was lucky to have the Otterbox on his iPhone. He could go in there for like an hour and nothing would happen to his phone. That's okay, I'm going to use my bluetooth wireless headphones, leave my phone in the locker and go in the sauna that way. I should be able to walk that far away from my phone. We'll test it out sometime this week. I don't know about tomorrow... I work 3 to 11 and I have to find out what the warranty co. is going to do about my car. And I have a bad feeling. So if all that goes bad, I have to deal with it before work. And I don't think I'll have time to go to the Y. Although I do want to :(

I'm trying to keep my mind off of Pat right now. It seems like that's ALL I'm thinking about and to make it worse one of the kids who left before him is graduating in a few days so he has liberty now... and he's been on facebook... and yea I had to read everything and it made me sad and miss Pat more. Then I had to see everyone else's statuses. And they scare me. One was something about going out on in the field for training for ten days... no cell phone. UGH... or others bitch about where they are. And I don't want Pat to hate it... what if he does? UGH. And then another minor problem... all the girls that try to talk to these guys... I don't know how I'm going to deal with that! Just another problem to think about! I'm burying myself!!

I wonder if Pat thinks about me throughout the day? I'd imagine he's to busy to... everyonce in a while I whisper I love you to him, hoping he might hear it♥
i♥youPat.

Day 2 of 88 [God places the heaviest burden on those who can carry its weight]

Its raining. And its exactly how I feel. I don't want to do anything, I just want to lay down. All day. I'm doing better today then yesterday- not as emotional! I miss him so much. Mrs. C sent me a text last night(I was at work) when she got the last phone call. He was yelling off of a script and she didn't have time to say anything. She said it sounded horrible and made her sick. She's afraid of the hell he will being going through. As much as I wanted the last phone call... maybe it was better she got it. I don't know if I could have handled it. I wrote him a letter last night too. I'll send it as soon as he writes me. I hope and pray he does great down there and I hope he's careful not to get hurt. I want him to be done on time. I can't stand being away from him. I have to work today. I don't really feel like it, but I know it will keep me sane.

I got the room cleaned up a lot this morning. Its a lot nicer now that its not cluttered. I still have things to go through, though. I alphabetized my dvd collection also. Then stood in front of all of them(which is A LOT) for ten minutes and was like "wow, I don't want to watch any of these". :( I also weighed myself. I had lost a few pounds the last couple of days. Haven't really been eating or drinking much. My weight is: 221. I've gained 40 pounds since the beginning of the year :\ My goal: to lose as much as I can! I'm just going to go for it and do what I can. I need to start going to the Y, but since I normally work till midnight, I don't get up until 11 or noon... and its hard to go to the Y before I have to be back at work. I'll make it work though.

I love you Pat.
♥ Jessi

Day 1 of 88 [i think] ♥

Well... I cried a little bit last night. And for the second night in a row, I had a nightmare as a fell asleep. It started the other night. As I was falling asleep, I thought there were bugs flying around my head... I could hear the buzzing plain as day. (Like when we were at the farm the other day and all the flies, dragonflies, and bees) And I swear in my sleep I was swatting at them. It was really freaking me out and I was still half awake. Well last night it was similar. I kept jolting half awake because of something. I don't know what's going on. BUT, last week I woke up in a panic, pretty much from a nightmare. I saw a spider on my pillow, like a daddy-long-leg. And literally jumped up and woke pat too (which he was really really irritated and yelled at me) After I made sure there was no sign of a spider, I went back to bed. And had a horrible horrible dream about bugs and cockroaches. It was so weird and creepy. Yuck. What's going on in my head?!?!

Everyone keeps telling me I should work on 'me' while Pat's gone. Its the perfect time to do it. And its what I plan on doing. Work though, is not helping. This week, I work till midnight every night. I was going to go to the Y today, but I really don't want to drive Pat's truck. Its just big and makes me so nervous. Especially when there's more people on the road. I don't mind driving it at night, when traffic has slowed down. But not during the day. Blah. Maybe tomorrow? I am starting my diet. Or I should say, today I'm beginning to watch what I eat. I don't have a lot of money this week or the time to go grocery shopping for diet food. SO... I'm going to 'watch' what I eat. Which means, smaller portions, no fast food, and not eating when I get off work, late at night!

I wish Pat could call me :( I miss him so much. And we tell eachother everything so not knowing what he's doing every day, sucks. I like when he tells me about his day. :( I just want to hug him one last time.

I have so much to do in my room. ttyl.

The beginning of a long situation.

I don't know how I'm going to do this without Pat. Its only been an hour and 41 minutes and I already don't know what to do with myself. I have to keep reminding myself that I can't call him and I can't talk to him... and that I won't get to see him in a few days or when I get off work... this is really happening. And it sucks. And I'm nervous that he's going to get hurt or get sent home. And if he gets discharged, for ANY reason, he's going to be a basket-case and probably suicidal. And that's really really scary for me. It ended up being a sad day. I think Pat teared up more than he wanted to. I think he was really touched by how many people actually care about him. He always thinks no one does and that no one's going to miss him when he's gone. But he's wrong. I'm glad he got to see and talk to the people he wanted to, before he left. I think it meant a lot to him.

Dad came home today! That was a nice surprise, although it will probably cause problems. Mom and Dad, will both be pissy now. And I had to half explain why I'm driving Pat's truck and not my car. And I thought I'd have the house to myself next week. Mom and Ash are going to Florida - Sunday-to-Sunday. Well, Dad's going to be home for a while. So there goes peace and quiet. Haha... not really, Dad doesn't bother me, I just can't do whatever I want now.

I have to work tonight, 8 to midnight, not too bad. I just wonder how many times I will break out in tears. I hope not a lot. Hopefully we'll be really busy and it'll go by fast and I won't think about Pat being gone. :(

[its just 13 weeks...] Please God give me strength, not to go nuts without my babe :)

I love you Pat and I know you will do your best and make us all proud!
♥

P.S. As long as he does well at Parris Island, he should graduate August 27th!

Planning

I was planning a trip to Washington D.C. but then I realized, I should be saving money for North Carolina. I really want to go to D.C. though. I'm torn. It was a really nice package too. I think about it some more, I guess.
I haven't heard anything from the NC district manager yet, which is really frustrating too. She called the store back but Annette wasn't there that day, so its been like two weeks since then. I know she's busy but, I'm moving regardless and I need the information immediately. And I should be the one talking to her anyway, not Annette. I could easily just send in my resume right now, myself. But I need them to know, its not a "maybe". I need to know about the areas and which stores I can even look at. I can't do anything until I know which store are available. Aghhhh. I'm so frustrated.

I haven't been having a very good week and it just makes me hate this place and EVERYONE here even more. I can't wait to move and start ALL over. I won't regret it one bit.

♥ its whatever.

I ♥ roller coasters!

Sheetz continued the new tradition of taking any employee who has been with the company for three or more years, somewhere this summer. Yesterday we went to Kennywood. (In Pittsburgh, PA) It was awesome! They provide transportation, food, and the tickets. But we were allowed to bring family/friends(pay for themselves) and drive separately. I rode with Amanda and Wendy who wanted to stay later and drove separate. We had a blast! It was so much fun and I was surprised and excited that Wendy would go on the roller coasters! I just never thought she was like that. I love roller coasters, but I won't lie. Before I get on them, I'm freaking out inside and I get a little scared. Not enough that I'll turn around and get off but I get really anxious, excited, and nervous all at the same time. After the ride is over, I'm fine and I could go back on the same one a hundred times if I could! I definitely want to thank Sheetz for taking us there. Last year(the first year) we went to the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame, which was cool but not much fun for some people. This year, they asked us for suggestions and I didn't think they would take us somewhere like an amusement park. (I suggested the zoo, because I really want to go) But they chose Kennywood which was PERFECT!

I really want to take Pat too. I don't know why but I really want him to go. I think he'll really like it and for some reason really want to share that experience with him. I don't know... its weird. I don't know what is going on between me and him, and I have no clue what I want from him. I'm so confused. There's days I hate him and wish I'd never met him, then there's days I want to make it work, but I don't see it being anything better than the worst. I DON'T KNOW. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT'S GOING ON IN MY HEAD. And he doesn't help at all! He just makes things even worse and does nothing to make me want to spend the rest of my life with him. This is probably the hardest thing I've ever gone through. And no ones advice helps me figure anything out. UGHHH.

I have to work a few afternoon shifts this week because of all the people who went on vacation this week. There was 8 people or so! And I got fucked. Royally. And its not like anyone thanks you or anything like that. People are so conceited and ignorant. I can't wait to get out of here. Anyone who tells me, "you'll have the same problems down there that you have here." doesn't know what they are talking about. If you leave this state and come back, just driving around here you can see how depressed it is! And people aren't mean and unhappy other places! Yea every once in a while you'll encounter someone like that, but its not all the time. And I'll be glad to leave this rotting place.

If you want to pursue your dreams, you have to get out of Youngstown, Ohio. Ohio is only good for coming back to later in life where you just want an easy, quiet existence.

♥ Jessica.

Staying busy keeps you young!

Busy week:
Monday: Doc appt. at 1145am/Pay car insurance(I go to the office to do this)/walk with Jenn and Tar-ah/Paint toe nails/Gym at 530pm/Intervention Party starting at 900pm in Salem/At some point, do bills

Tuesday: Help Uncle Tommy pay a bill online at YiaYia's (His computer is older and his Internet Explorer it out of date, it can't load most sites)/Leetonia Bike Trail- walk or bike/Gym at 530pm/Walk with Melissa at 700ishpm

Wednesday: Relaxing. Going to go with the flow, what ever comes up, comes up. ((Def gym though!))

Thursday: Work 600am to 300pm/Movie afternoon with Melissa!/Gym at 530pm/Walk with Mel at 700pm/working on resume

Friday: Work 530am to 300pm/Eye appt. 400pm/Gym 530pm/Maybe walk with Mel(Friday's laundry day for her)/Shopping Day {maybe Wal-Mart}/Party in Salem {possibly}

It might not seem like a lot to you guys... but with work in between there and if I'm not sleeping well at night, it'll really takes a tole on me. Not to mention any stress or drama that happens this week. :\ life is life, right?

Drama update:
Wendy transferred to ATown Sheetz (every ones still talking about this)
Kristys Shower/wedding... heard some gossip about this
Sisters friend drives all the way to NCarolina (from Ohio) to pick up a boy, lies to 'rents
MTV MAwards, Eminem fiasco
Cousin has friend move into apartment complex that annoys the eff out of her
Mom has two jobs pending this week, which one does she choose?
Something happened to co-worker... dealing with cheating...
... seems like our lives revolve around drama.

total eclipse of the heart.

I'm nearly done with Eclipse! i decided to take a break from reading though, I was starting to get a headache! I definitely like this book better than the second, New Moon. The first is still my favorite. Ash gave me the fourth one so I'll start that probably tonight.

I made my appointment for the doctor's today! 2pm. Finally. I can't wait to get this checked. Its a cyst or something similar, on my back near my neck. It hurts really bad and its just unbearable now. I can't even sleep well because of the location of it! The pillow irritates it and its very tender. Its getting bigger every day too. ((Keep in mind I didn't have insurance for a whole year that's why I couldn't get it checked! I just got my insurance through Sheetz a couple of weeks ago)) Dad gets cysts but his don't hurt. Pat and Mom said I have little ones all over my back... that's a scary thought. At least you can't see them. They don't have heads and they're so small they look like bumps. None of those ones hurt, as far as I can tell. My back is sensitive and always hurts, but I assume its not the cysts doing that. Who knows. I hope y co-pay isn't a lot... Ashley's was only $30. I probably won't be so lucky. I was told that Sheetz's insurance is sucky.

I'm baking a cake today! Caramel with caramel icing. Its been in the cupboard forever so I decided it needed to be used. I also have to clean. CLEAN. !!! Yea, we'll see when that happens! I' just to absorbed in the book and I'm tired... I'll get to it. Eventually.

I have a project I have to start =} Its badddd. But its hilarious and he deserves it! Maybe I'll upload it when I'm through. Heehee. I feel so devious!

Loves.

happy hour!

amaretto sour anyone?
=)

i went to the BMV. what a depressing place that is. they're always so... mean and unresponsive. i dreaded going but i figured i'd get it out of the way. i didn't have to wait long but i kinda got screwed. my birthday's in april, so either i renew my plates then or buy ones for 2010. well i would have totally bought them for 2010 except they were $81.25, I only had $80 with me!!! (Damn Haircut!) so i had to buy them for april (only $30.25). oh well. now i just have to remember to go back and get them renewed. i'll have to make a note.

i was going to visit sgt. dudley yesterday when i was at the mall... but i decided not to. maybe i should have. it might have kept my morale up. i'm still exercising and watching what i eat. its hard with it being so cold out, though. when it gets warmer, i'll have no problems going for walks and runs. it just feels like it will never get above 35 degrees!!! im tired of winter.

____ i know... i love winter, and even i'm saying i'm tired of her.

i just want to get out of here NOW. ii want to lose the weight and join and be gone from this shit hole. i can't stand anything about this place. nothing. although as much as i HATE my job and think its going to be the death of me... i will proudly say i made $16000 last year! that's awesome considering where i work and what i do. and i'm getting ALOT back from taxes =) i'm happy about that.

i think i'm going to finish cleaning.
riight.

"Authority doesn't work without prestige, or prestige without distance." - Charles de Gaulle

The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, nor to worry about the future, but to live the present moment wisely and earnestly.
Buddha

Some much needed R&R is coming the next few days. I'm on 'vacation' because Pat was suppose to leave on the 20th. Well he got sick and gained weight so obviously, he has to get better and lose the weight. But I'm still taking the vacation days. If I don't I'll probably burn the store down and tell them all to fuck off. Its been that kind of year, already. Not a great way to start the year but I guess you can't control how stupid, ignorant, disrespectful, incompetent, and insensitive people can be. Especially the people you thought were 'friends' and still act like everything's okay! But whatever, I'm moving on and I'll just forget about all of you. You don't need me, I don't need you.

I have to take YiaYia to the doctors tomorrow and then Patrick made an appointment for me to talk to Sgt. Dudley. That douche-bag wants me to join the Marines. HA. I mean I totally would. Good job security, benefits, schooling, traveling, all the bonuses... but I don't think I can cut it in boot camp. Actually I already know hard it would be. I'm not the athletic type and I HATE being yelled at. I'll be crying every day. I know if I tried, I could. But do I want to? I know I can be a bitch and mom says it would be perfect for me (but she doesn't want me to do it) but can I actually be that stern and mature? I like to laugh and have a good time. I can be a girly-girl! Can I control those urges for 13 weeks? And then after, what if I don't change back to my old self? I mean, Pat's recruiter is cool and normal and all the other sergeants that he knows, are too... but what if I can't relax again? I don't know. I need to get some kind of schooling for something and I don't know if I can afford it on my own. This would be the best opportunity to use the government while they use me. Its a big decision. But I really have nothing to lose (besides my life if I have to go to active duty). But I have nothing serious going on for me right now. Nothing. Doesn't matter where I live, I'm not going to school right now, I hate my job. You know, I can actually just drop and leave tomorrow (after I make the weight requirements). Luckily, I would have to lose weight. This is a good thing because if I stay with Sheetz until my 5 year anniversary which is this July, they will match 100% of my 401k. I already have about 2500 saved which right now they're only matching 4%. But 100% will be AWESOME. So that gives me months to think about this and lose weight. I know it sounds weird for me to even be considering this, but I don't want to go to a traditional college and I don't know if I want to do any programs around here. Plus everyone I've talked to, said "you can't even do real-life" and said there's no way I could do it. So that kind of make me want to show them up and then tell them to fuck off.

Decisions, Decisions.

every time i do it, i do it for my hood

Brian's Birthday Bash:
We started at O'Donolds. Brian was already trashed when we got there! It was fun though. We all did 302 shots and I think that put us over. Wendy ended up holding my hair back. Vince was there, he was too drunk though. Pat hung with him for a while. Brian's one band member was drunk and funny as hell! And Mike was funny too. We ended up moving the party to the Babylon so Brian could experience the Strip Club! Me, Bobbi, Wendy, Mike, and Pat got a laugh out of it. Brian got two Table Dances and I think he loved every minute of it!! I sobered up on pretzels and fries. Yes, pretzel and fries at the Strip Joint? Fuck yea! I would have puked again if I didn't eat something! It was so funny to watch Brian! I still can't get over it! Jen ended up screwing us over though. I was disappointed in her. She was texting me up until 8 and was like coming and ended up never showing up, and then didn't text me til 9 the next morning! I thought something happened. But her and Chad ended up at Smokey Bones and both got drunk. She would have had fun with us. After last call, we all went to Taco Bell. It was so good. Definitely the ultimate drunk food! Then we took Wendy's drunk ass home. She was funny. She's a fun/annoying drunk. But it was a blast. I love O'Donolds. I can't wait to go back!

Pat's Departure Date:
Pat found out that he was close to the maximum body fat and actually could have left months ago. But the recruiters are dumb. So he has like 3% to go or 10 pounds and will leave February 20th! I'm so excited for him. I went in to tell my boss I wanted the 17th through the 21st off, which is 3 weeks away... and she gave me shit. There's four schedules up and she already made the one prior to the 20th. Well I don't care, I'm taking those days off and she can fuck herself. Whether she finds someone to cover them or not... its three weeks before that she knows she can just change the schedule but she's being stupid. And the thing is, I've worked for her for 5 years, I bust my ass for her, she's never had ANY problems from me, and she gave me shit? Ok, fuck yourself. I'm so out of there as soon as I can. Its bullshit how she takes advantage of people. Especially the people she shouldn't. I wish I could just up and quit. I'd like to just stick it to them.

How People Change, For Other People:
Its funny how people change for others. And how they don't stick up for themselves. Its just amusing. Funny how people say one thing, then someone else influences them and they go back on what they say or even want! I can't believe some people choose something over something else. Especially when that something else, is actually there for you or is your true friend.