December 28, 2009

R.I.P. Harley; October 2005 to December 28 2009

Pat, mom, and I took Harley to the vet today. Like we thought, he was diagnosed with diabetes. We made a very tough decision after a few hours and decided it was best if we put him to sleep. It was the worst feeling in the world. I didn't want to leave him and it hurt so bad. I miss him so much. He was a really good and loyal dog and he will never be replaced. I hope he's in doggy heaven surrounded by raw-hides, looking down on us. Harley, you will never be missed and one day we will meet again.

bye harles.


December 22, 2009

Try and Try Again.

Update: I went to TDDS School of Allied Health for the STNA (State Tested Nurses Aide) program. It was about three weeks long and I really enjoyed it. My classmates were really nice and we had fun and clinicals we really not that bad! After you complete the course you take the state test. Our dates were for like three weeks after the class ended. Well, as you know, I got in an accident on the thirteenth of December. My scheduled state test was that week! The seventeenth! After talking to everyone, I decided not to cancel the test. I was feeling better and was able to move so I could still do the skills. The test is composed of a 70 question written test and then you have to perform 5 skills. Well I passed the written with a 95%. And I passed four skills 100%, perfectly, NO FLAWS. But I failed one, vest restraints! Now, I was having trouble. And I kept checking and re-checking my slip knots and the position on the strap where I tied it. I know for a fact I tied it to the non movable part of the bed and I watched the evaluator pull the knots and they came perfectly undone (which is all part of the critical step.) BUT I still failed. I think what happened was I thought where the strap came down and where I would tie it(right where it fell) was not the movable part so I tied them a little higher then the residents waist. Which would not be the correct part. I was really upset when I found out, but I had a feeling I wasn't going to pass. The accident happening five days before threw everything off, and I couldn't study by acting the skills out since I was in so much pain. Ugh... now I have to wait to find out when the next test dates are and pay for the skills portion again. Luckily my Mom said she would cover me. It just sucks because in this field you can't even use vest restraints unless it is absolutely ordered by a physician. So having it as one of the 25 skills sucks because I shouldn't know how to do it since its dangerous and wrong to put a resident in a restraint!

I'm going to go to the reviews though and try my hardest. I'm just afraid I'll be really nervous again and get hard skills. Besides vest restraint my other skills were handwashing(everyone has to do), denture care, weighing an ambulatory resident, and changing an occupied bed! Those are nice and easy! I might get PERI CARE, FEEDING, or even VITAL SIGNS next time! And you only have 35 minutes to do all five!

I am going to keep my head up though :) and practise, practice, practice!
♥ jessi.

December 14, 2009

its winter time again... ♥

I love winter. And I love the snow. But I don't love ice. And not knowing its going to be covering the roads completely! And not knowing that the salt trucks were not sent out before or during the rain!! Picture this. Walking outside, down the steps to the sidewalk and sliding the first footstep down! Then sliding all the way to the end of the driveway where your car is parked. Then getting in your car regardless of the situation you're in, because you HAVE to go to work. Call your boyfriend before you leave the driveway to tell him not to go ANYWHERE this morning because it looks like a sheet of ice is covering everything. Start you car, defrost the ice on the windshield. Leave the driveway, then the development, thinking "not all the roads are icy". Which they weren't! Didn't slide once until the bend. The next part happened fast and was very chaotic. After rounding the slight bend, I noticed my car starting to pull in the other lane, then it was all over. Back and forth for the next few seconds, the wildily being thrown across the road and back over and over. Next the car starts to spin, fast. I can't see anything, but the tree coming at me. I start to scream and suppose I gripped the steering wheel. Bounced off of the tree and I think out of reflex put my foot down. Which happened to land on the GAS PEDAL which in turn made the car slam into, DEAD ON, in ANOTHER TREE! A few seconds went by and I think I realized what happened, I started to cry and scream because I realized I was pinned in my seat. At this point I think my windown wasn't broken out... because I distinctly remember seeing it. But I don't know. I lost my phone and couldn't find my glasses. Minutes went by and I realized my door wouldn't budge. I couldn't grab my phone. All I wanted to do was to call for help. Finally I reached my phone and dialed 911. After this was HELL. In short, a half hour went by and I was trapped in the car, in pain. Two more wrecks occured, which in turn made the cop think one was my wreck and didn't see me. My manager who I called crying to say I got in an accident, got in one herself. They had to use the Jaws of Life to get me out, which are very scary. I was put into the ambulance which got stuck and almost wrecked itself! Another half hour went by as we waited for salt trucks or someone to help us. As were sitting there, the driver is saying to brace ourselves, a car is coming right for us. This happened twice. Then I could hear him say, "a car just took out a mailbox, that car just wrecked" etc etc. It was hell. And the ER is a whole different story. I'm thankful for my friends and my family and I am thankful I came out of it. My car is demolished and that's sad. I really liked that car.

No one asked me if my life flashed before my eyes. Something did... I can't say exactly what it was, but I remember thinking about something... or more importantly someone. I'm not sure.

Another weird thing, Pat asked me before I walked out, not to go to work that morning. And of course I said no, I have to work. Amd he asked me one more time, "don't go to work today".

December 6, 2009

Sundays are not fun days.

its been a while since I've posted, just been really busy. got a new phone and contract. So far no problems with Sprint. I got the HTC Hero, its sweet! I also completed the STNA(state tested nurses aide) course at TDDS School of Allied Health. I got my certificate and I take the state test on December 17th. I'm a little nervous. But I'm going to try my hardest and study. I'm back at work too, that's fun... yea...

moving on...

I don't know what to get Pat for Christmas. I don't really know what to get anyone, actually. and I don't have too much money, which sucks! I know what I want for Christmas, but I can't bring myself to say it and I know I shouldn't be asking... but it is what I want and I can't help thinking it. I know its not going to happen but its worth a dream, right? :c I know you probably don't understand what I'm talking about... its ok though.

I'm using this new app in my phone so I guess we'll see if this posts.
♥ jes