Day 60 [Excited to be Mrs. Jessica Ann Carey!!!]

I'm so excited to marry Pat!!! And it's ten times better because he SOOO excited too! It's all he talks about in his letters! I want to put them on here, but I think they're too personal. I read them to my sister (which I love doing, we analyze everything) and I read snippets to other people. I decided to make them their own scrap book for right now. I didn't have anything from before when Pat was a poolee so I can't really do much with all that until graduation and after. So I decided I'll put them in the scrap book and then I'll have them forever! =) I'm so excited to see him. He told me in Sunday's letter that he was going to hate when I go to work and he can't see me, but he knows I have to work =( I wish he wouldn't have told me that because now it's going to be really hard for me to want to go. I would have been better off if he didn't say it LOL. I can't wait though. There's so much I want to do and talk about and I feel like I need to start prepping now!! I want to pack already!!! LOL and I want to get his goodie bag together now, but I'm afraid of the candy/chocolate/etc getting hard or not tasting good. So I'm going to wait till like the week before. (And I have to remember to get the bag for the goodies from Walmart. They have the present bags really cheap)


There's so much going on and so much I need to do. I've become unorganized the past few weeks and it's messing everything up =\ I don;t even know where I am!


Need to figure everything out and get grounded again.


I love Patrick♥

Day 59 [11 Pages of Love]

Well thankfully, I got deferred from jury duty. I almost cried when I listened to the voice message the jury clerk left me. I was so happy. That night though, Dad broke some bad news about my car. I'm getting screwed left and right with the car. Because we waited to tell them to do it (had to make sure I was going to be able to use all the money, mom FREAKED, it's going to cost $4800) someone else bought the head! There's only a few in the US!!!!!!!!! What are the chances of someone needing one really?!? UGHHH. I'm so pissed. Barry said they can't find any. It could be weeks. I don't know what I'm going to do. Dad's coming with us to the graduation which is AWESOME. I'm really happy about that because I was stressing about it. I thought he wouldn't be able to. But now, how am I going to get to Hocking Hills???? I'll have to rent a car and I didn't factor that into anything because it wasn't supposed to ever happen. Now I think I'm going to have to not make big payments on my bills the next two paychecks, so I can save money for a rental car and then there's other things. Gas money, clothes for Pat- he's not going to fit into anything he owns, I have to get contacts, my hair done, nails- maybe ?, food for the cabin, goodie bag for Pat, food in South Carolina, I don't even know what else. I'm sure I'm missing tons of stuff. It's really stressful.


I have to work till midnight tonight, fun fun. I don't feel like doing anything. I've been having weird dreams and not sleeping well...


I dreamt of Pat last night, but I don't remember =(=(

Day 57 [Good luck ran out]

I got summoned for JURY DUTY! On AUGUST 17th! That means it would interfere with Pat's grad dates of August 25-27 and then our get-away August 28-30 and ALSO us going to the court house to get a marriage license and MARRIED!!! UGHHHHHHH. I feel horrible. I'm so upset. I called and the lady said they'd "defer" me, but I don't want to be at jury duty during Pat's 10 days of leave!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel sick. The lady said I had to write about my plans and I added about Uncle Eddie. I don't know if she'll care, or if it even matters but I wrote that I had no faith in our judicial system and I don't feel comfortable being apart of a decision that will change the rest of someone's life whether they are a criminal or not.


Maybe I'll take that part out... I don't know. She said the way the deferral works is if there's another trial, so there could not be one for later and then I can deal with it then. I hate stuff like this! I'm so stressed now!! AND NOT TO MENTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111


last night the confirmation number and invoice for our Cabin at Hocking Hills... was....


666


omg.... I'm going to freak out.


i need to lay down.