May 31, 2008

bummed :o(

Well, were not going to Geneva this weekend. All the hotels were booked. But were going to plan something for next month and I told Erica that might be safer. This weekend we just got lucky that we didn't work, next month we can request off.

Everyone seems to have problems right now. Not normal problems, but really personal, life changing problems. I feel bad for them, because they're all nice, good people. And all I can do is listen and give some advice. Advice that I usually know they aren't going to take. I understand that it takes time to build up the courage to do something that must be done. But when I see that is the required step, and they don't do it, then what am I supposed to do? And how does it seem so easy to me and not them? All they need to do is confront the problems straight up. Speak Up. Talk. Communicate. I feel I do that with my problems. Most of them at least. There are some I do ignore but its because they aren't serious. The problems my friends have(or ones that I see) are serious problems that they need to talk about to the person it deals with. What's hard for me though, is when they keep coming to me and venting to me about the same things that are just getting worse and worse. And they still aren't talking to the person they really need to talk to. I won't repeat myself over and over. So when I go silent, I feel like I'm not helping them. But I don't have anything else to say! Its frustrating for me! And I just want everyone to be happy. Its summer! Its time to have fun and not have any worries! Geez.

DL this song: Lolli Lolli(Pop that body) - Three 6 Mafia

May 30, 2008


Catching Up.

My baby came home and surprised me last week! He did trick me, but it was worth it. I cried. I told him later it was like I needed to pinch him and make sure he was really there, because it just didn't seem real. We had fun the 5 days he was home. They went really fast, though. He was gone for over 3 weeks and that felt like 3 months and when he got home the 5 days felt like only 2! It sucked but he does have to make money and take care of his finances if he wants to show me he's worth marrying!

So although I'm bummed he's gone, I do have something else to look forward to! Geneva!!! I can't wait, its going to be so much fun!! We're doing that thing where you get a drink at every bar and then you get a tshirt at the very last one!! And I'm glad I'm going with Erica. She's responsible and I feel safe when I go out with her. :o) One more day and we leave!!

We were supposed to leave tonight but Tracy couldn't get the night off, so were leaving tomorrow. I work til 5 today. Short shift. Colleen switched with me <--love that girl! So now I'm just chillin before work. I should clean my room. But damn, my back hurts :(

DL this song: Yael Naim- New Soul :) It puts me in a good mood!

May 21, 2008

Life is...

Life is a confusing. But I'm content with mine. Or as content as I could be, I guess. I don't understand why things happen sometimes. But I accept the outcomes. I never regret anything, I learn from the decisions I make. I realize I'm confusing. I realize life's confusing. But in the end, I think I have learned that you should do whatever makes you happy and don't lie to yourself. Sometimes we spend so much time defending ourselves to others that we ended up covering up our real feelings and forgetting about them. Who cares what others think? I've learned not to let others influence my decisions. There's no harm in listening to their help, but do what you want to in the end.

Life should be fun and exciting, not full of stress and hatred.

May 14, 2008

The Shuffle Survey. Get Silly.

Use your mp3 player, Windows Media Player, or whatever. Put all songs on SHUFFLE. Hit NEXT to provide your answers! Use the one that comes up, no matter how messed up, funny, or stupid it is!!

1.) What's your current mood?
I Miss You Like Crazy - Christina Milian

2.) What was your first kiss like?
Comatose - Skillet

3.) What do you think of your boyfriend/girlfriend?
Serenade - Mozart

4.) What do you think of your life?
Dear Diary - Britney Spears

5.) What were your high school years like?
Crash Into Me - Dave Mathews Band

6.) What would your parents say about you?
Hail To Princess Aurora - Sleeping Beauty

7.) What are you afraid of?
Gravity - Sara Bareilles

8.) What makes you happy?
Hi Hi Hi - Paul McCartney and Wings

9.) What are you doing tonight?
69 - T-Pain

10.) What will be the first song played at your wedding?
Roll On 'Em - Chingy

11.) What do you think of your job?
Stars Are Blind - Paris Hilton

12.) What were you doing this morning?
I Miss You - Blink 182

13.) If you could do anything, what would you do?
Gangsta Gangsta - Lil Scrappy

14.) If you had a month long vacation, what would you be doing?
Hey Lil Mama - Baby Bash

15.) If someone cut you off while driving, you would say?
Zoom - Lil Boosie

16.) The last thing you said to your mother was?
Don't Rush - 112

17.) If you won the lottery, what would you yell out in excitement?
Gangsta Don't Play - Fabolous

18.) Was last nights fling good in bed?
Let Me Get Em - Soulja Boy

19.) Are you sexy?
Get It Big - Trapstarz

20.) Have you ever partied so hard, you didn't remember what happened?
Money In The Bank - Swizz Beatz

21.) Have you ever been with the opposite sex?
Freestyle - Cassidy

22.) What's your best friend think of you?
Where I Want to Be - Donnell Jones

23.) What do you think of your best friend?
We Takin Over - DJ Khaled

24.) What song explains your life?
He Can't Love You - Jagged Edge

25.) What are you thinking about?
Gimme More - Britney Spears

26.) What do you think of our president?
I Want You Exclusive - Day26

27.) What turns you on?
Hero - Chad Kroeger

Shits and Giggles.

May 11, 2008

Lil Wayne Concert

Was a disappointment. And it was a waste of money. I still like his music and believe he's a good artist, but he's not the greatest performer and was a little ridiculous. The concert started at 7:30pm, and he didn't come on until after 11pm. ??? The DJ and the radio station did their best to keep the audience's attention and waste time but it was annoying and pointless. There was rumors that he was not going to show up at all in Youngstown, and after the cancelation in the first place, I wouldn't have doubted it. But he was there, he just "wasn't coming out". Not sure why... but normally performers don't do that to their fans. I've been to quite a few concerts/shows, and this
was the worst. Let alone the sound was horrible, there were no lighting effects/special effects, back up dancers... nothing. I'm not saying every performer has to have all of that... But damn. Make the show interesting. It wasn't by the time he actually got on the stage, I didn't want to be there, and you can tell other people didn't. People were asking for their money back and everything. After a show like that, he gave himself a bad reputation in Youngstown. I for one, would never pay to see him again, and I wish it wasn't this way. And the Chevy Centre didn't make this event any better. If they are wondering why people don't buy tickets for events and concerts there, they should try sitting at one of them, themselves. Their ushers are horrible, and if you have a problem, there is no supervisor that knows what they are talking about. Their staff needs a lesson in customer courtesy and professionalism.

The only thing I enjoyed about the concert was I was feeling good because of the beer, and we stayed to hear Lollipop and see Birdman. Although, I wish he performed more. He was honestly better than Wayne.

So in the end, I wish the best to Lil Wayne, and hopes he and his entertainment team, gets their shit together.
I'll continue to listen to your music, but I'm not sure if I'll be patronizing you anytime soon.