updates♥

There's so much updating I need to do :) Here's a brief overview:
We're moved into our new apartment in Jacksonville! We're getting tmo soon so we'll be moving all our stuff down here. Which can't come soon enough, we're sleeping on an air mattress and I only have a few pieces of clothing, same with Pat. We got a tv for the living room, so that's good. Now I'm not completely bored. We only have Pat's car at the moment so I can't go anywhere.
Update on my car: IT'S DONE!!! Finally! Butttt, of course my family is crazy and now the agreement my father and I had, has somehow changed. I think my MOTHER got into his head or something. So basically she, who isn't involved, is controlling what's going on. (Being that she and dad, mostly DAD, paid for the bill.) But it was money I had saved up to pay them back so really it was still my money. Ugh, confusing I know. The amount of the bill was over $5000 so when they say BMW is expensive to fix, they're right. But I know it was done right and it was done by a BMW dealership, so it's certified work. So yea, it may be more expensive to fix then say a Chevy, now that's it's fixed, it's like brand new. And some other cars you can't say that for. Plus the new head had really low miles on it as well as my engine, so I'm in good shape. EXCEPT, I found out my MOTHER is driving it?!?!?!?!?! I'm going to kill her I swear. And she's doing it behind my back, having Ash cover her and shit! I could kill her. 
--Then she says I need to get a job(she knows I have debt) understandably. But how can I get to work without a car?! She thinks Pat doesn't need a car to get to base or while he's at 'work'(on base) She's effing retarded. 


And she wants to move down here with us. After everything she's putting me through?! Hell NO! She can move down here on her own, and get her own damn apartment.


Ridiculous.


ANYWAY... back to updating:
love our apartment. It's a 2 bedroom/2 bath, sun room, living room, dining room, walk-in closets, 24-hr laundry center, gym, and business center, pet friendly. surrounding are is awesome. Tons of restaurants, TEXAS ROADHOUSE AND SONIC within a minute down the street!!!! Plazas, tons of stores, hotels, etc etc. There's a park behind us! Although I don't think it has trails or anything like home. But I did find out there is a nature trail down the road from us. So I'll have to check it out soon. The mall is really close. We're like a few minutes from the main gate. The weather is awesome. Sometimes it gets a little chilly, but not bad at all. Other than that, we haven't gone adventuring. :( Maybe since we're not going home for Thanksgiving(home is out of bounds for Pat) we'll do some adventuring during his libo. We're tight on money right now though... the way his pay checks fall and his few bills, it doesn't end up to good for us. Especially at the beginning of the month. Then because I'm not working and I got my last paycheck last week, I have to stay afloat on my bills... but it's going to be tight, probably too tight. And my credit already isn't great- I really can't afford to go default on my bills. But I'm also not going to make Pat's account go negative. It sucks... not sure what we're going to do. [I NEED MY CAR SO I CAN GO WORK!]


Well just wanted to update a little, I should be working on bills and cleaning right now :)


♥yous!

Day 50 [I Love Pat Carey]

I want a new layout for this but I can't find any cute Marine/Military layouts =( 
I may have found Pat's grad present! I wanted to get him a Ka-Bar, but Sgt. Grit's are pretty expensive and I know he wants us to go on a get-away before anything else. So, I've been saving money for that. BUTTT, my dad gets BudK Catalogs in the mail and it's full of guy stuff. Like hunting stuff, military stuff, movie stuff, weapons, gadgets, etc etc. SO, while I was looking through it, I found some really sweet knives that are military and their cheaper. So I think I will order one from there. =) I have to watch though, Pat said he def. wanted me to try to get my contacts. Well I feel like the eye infections aren't gone and the doc even told me to use the rest of the medicine because he still saw a little bit. Well I have to keep in mind the contact exam appointment is going to be $80 because my insurance is horrible and then 6 months pair of contacts are $80 too. So I have to get on that and decide if I'm going to do it or not. I also looked into the cabins at Hocking Hills and found some awesome ones. I just don't know though. I feel overwhelmed with all this planning. And I need dad to call about his Marriott Rewards so we can book the rooms and I have to get my car back, which is a whole other problem that got real bad again. I got totally screwed by them. It's costing a little more than half of what I PAID FOR THE CAR, to fix!!! I hope karma kicks them all in the ass. How could you sell a car THAT broken? And the crazy part is they rigged it SO well you would have NEVER known anything was wrong with it. We HAD a mechanic look at it too. Ugh. I'm so done with that crap. I just want my own car and leave all this behind me.


I miss Pat.
xoxo

Day 33 [So Bored]

Still no car and it's starting to really suck.

I want to go to the gym.
I need to go to the grocery store.
Mom's at work and I didn't ask her for her car today
(and she doesn't drive her other one, because she doesn't want to put miles on it!)
and Dad's really busy doing stuff with his Corvette,
and his truck is a company truck anyway, so I wouldn't ask to drive it.
And I refuse to talk to the Carey's right now.
They lied and I really don't want to see them anyway.
Ash lives 40 mins away so that's a no go.
... Everyone's either working, out of town, or busy with family stuff. Which is fine,
I just am getting antsy after being home ALL day long. I'm running out of things to do and I really don't want to take a nap. :( And when I get bored I miss Pat even more

and it gets harder and harder to not be depressed! And not to eat. I eat when I'm bored and nothing fills me up. Its horrible. Its like having the constant munchies. Uugghhh...

I did get a letter today though. He apologized for not being able to write as much. He got his name plates he says he keeps looking at them. [They say Carey and US Marines] he says "its so COOL!" haha... I can picture him saying it too and hearing his voice =) I bet he's really proud of himself for getting through phase 1. He said he's now am "aquatic warrior" or "a hazard to an aquatic environment" haha... he also said he's an "iron duck" =) That's my babe! I'm so happy for him. Little nervous for TD24 which I think is next Saturday... it's the gas chamber and rappel tower. =\

I'm almost finished with my letter to him, not much to write about because not much has happened since, last night! I think I'll take a shower and do my hair too.

[ILovePat]

Day 32 [The Marine Corps has my bf, but I have his heart]

Okay... well yesterday was a busy day and I wanted to type a letter for Pat and answer all his questions from the letter I got. I was semi-successful. I wasn't able to add pictures to it like he wanted but I told him from now on I would just type them and include a pic every day. (I was putting pics of like jokes or things off of news sites, but I guess he wants more of me!) Well I also decided to take the "shout-out" pics I've been planning, yesterday. It went well. =) I did my hair, makeup, and chose 4 different tops. I had to take them myself because no one was home to but they came out good. Then I picnik'd them, which of course I'll show you in a sec. It was my first time using picnik so I was just getting used to and I was having some trouble on the collage part. The program/site wouldn't let me make the individual pic smaller in it's own box so some of my sheets of paper are cut off. You can still tell what they said though. Pat will get the point.

I was hoping for a letter today but I didn't get one. I should have known. I'm starting to see a pattern in his letters. There's a few days a week he doesn't write or he'll combine the letters, which is fine. I like reading long ones instead of short ones. The short ones leave me wanting more! I got my 2nd Batt. hoodie and my "boyfriend is a marine" shirt(yellow for 2nd batt) in the mail today. I'm excited! Now I don't know what to wear... I got my dress yesterday in the mail, which I like but I'm not sure... maybe if I keep losing weight I'll like it better. It's a black summer dress, empire waist. And it has two sheer layers, which I think makes it look a little bunchy, I guess ?? I dunno... we'll have to see.
I working on getting a bunch of pics picnik'd now so I have them and can just add them when I write letters. I'm going to be really busy with work for 8 days in a row. And I work till midnight like all those days. Plus I HAVE to make time to go to the gym. So either I'll go before, or I'll go when I get off.

Hopefully my car will be done by next Monday. There was some miscommunication between Barry and his mechanics, and some were sick, and he wasn't there last week. They told my Dad the the heads were being sent out then. On this past Monday, Dad called Barry and Barry apologized saying all this stuff, but the HEADS WEREN'T EVEN SENT OUT ON MONDAY!!! :( and with the Holiday weekend... I'm getting royally screwed and I need my car!!! I honestly don't know how I'm getting to work those 8 days in a row. This is horrible. From now one I'm buying brand new!!!

[ILoveYouPat]
xoxo

Day 27 [Love has a curious way of finding its way through oceans and skies; distance is never a barrier]

I missed a few days, but that's okay. Its probably better that way. It meant I was out doing stuff and keeping busy.

I got A letter from Pat yesterday(Saturday). He was 1 out of 5 recruits on the WHOLE island chosen for Presidential Duty. His senior DI told him its a really big deal. He kind of doesn't want it though, he didn't say why. But I know why. He wants to go to Afghanistan and actually be in active war zones. I think he should do the pres thing for a little. I think it would be cool. Pat doesn't understand why he was picked. I was telling Ash maybe because of the strength he's shown(they're impressed by, for his size) and his eagerness to learn and being that he's a bigger guy(muscles), maybe that's what they want. If I was the pres, I wouldn't want scrawny guys protecting me, even if they are Marines, no offense, I just like buff guys with big muscles. =) I think its honorable to be security for the pres. That letter was from like 5 days ago, so I don't know what's happened since. He said he had to go to a presidential screening and take a test. Maybe I'll get a letter tomorrow.

I hate Sundays. They are the worst and I wake up always from a bad night's sleep, with strange dreams, and feeling like crap. And then it turns into the worst feeling ever! That lonely, gut-wrenching, sadness. UGH I hate it! I don't really know why Sundays are like this. I mean, ya there's no mail- but usually that means 2 letters on Monday! And Pat and I never really did anything special on Sundays sooo why do I get this horrible feeling? It makes me not want to do anything and I work 3 to midnight and its truck night. BLAH.

There's some drama that's been going on this past week too. A) haven't gotten my car back, I hope that's not a bad thing considering Luxury Imports never contacted me so now I have to spend $2000 to get it fixed. I would hate for it to be more than that. and B) I'm still having to find rides to/from work or use mom's car (which I hate driving) when she let's me, while Stephen drives Pat's truck around. That I was supposed to have till my car was fixed. That was also supposed to be getting fixed to be sold. That has over 100000 miles on it and I was only driving 4 miles to work and back, but Stephen is driving all over Gods creation! That was to be used by Mr. Carey because "supposedly" his car broke down- that's what Stephen claimed.

I told Pat I love him, but I don't love them.
They have no respect for me and they obviously don't care about me. And then Mrs. C has the nerve to text me and ask me about my car, knowing damn well I don't have it- STEPHEN comes into SHEETZ and sees my car isn't in the DAMN PARKING LOT!!! Then when I say no. She doesn't respond. UGHHHHHH.Pat wrote her telling her Stephen was not to be driving the truck (Pat does own the truck so he can) and he told her this BEFORE he left. I can't be wait to move and be done with everyone in this area!!!!!! (No offense to the people I do like)

I hate family drama.

I have to get a shower and try to relax before work. :\
I love you, Pat♥

Day 14/88... wishing for the mailman to bring a letter

I got off work an hour ago and I can't make myself go to bed. This only happens when Pat's not around. I think its because my mind is on overdrive and just can't calm down. It kind of sucks because I'd rather be sleeping, I've seen Pat in my dreams the last three days. But I can't seem to calm down to fall asleep fast enough. And I hope there's a letter arriving in a few hours. Every morning, as soon as I wake up, I go to the mailbox. And I walk back up the driveway with my head low because there's never anything in there that I actually want. Blah.

[FYI: Last night's dream with Pat was strange and a little scary. He was home and different. At first he wouldn't come see me even though we were a few feet apart at something like a festival. Then we took a walk and he was quiet and drawn away, like depressed. I don't remember much else, just that I didn't feel good and I didn't like it :\ I hope that's not a foreshadowing kind of dream...]

The other day I found out my neighbor's bf left for bootcamp the Monday after Pat and I just saw that one of his other friends left that same Monday too. I'm not sure if Pat knew that or not, but I'm going to write in on one of the letters I have to send to him. At least he'll see some familiar faces down there, if he sees them. I remember Megan and Shuler saw each other and actually would get to talk at church or something down there. I really hope Pat's doing okay.

Well I think I'm going to try to lay down. I'm a little nervous. About not getting a letter tomorrow and my car should be down sometime this week- maybe tomorrow and that means I have to explain to mom why we have to pay for it even though I was sold a car with a major problem. I know I keep posting that I will explain, but I don't feel like going over it again. So in short-

[I talked to an attorney and there are no lemon laws on used cars. There's no way to prove they sold the car to me that way. I would have to go through Cleveland courts and that would be long and I might not win. They knew I was over their 30 day/1000mile warranty [I didn't know this] but they still said they'd take care of the problem. The warranty they bought for me, telling me this would work, DIDN'T because it wasn't bought within 30 days of the car being bought(it was bought like 2 months later). Which Luxury Imports was surprised the warranty company said that. I knew it wasn't going to work when I sign the damn paper, but they said 'Oh no, this will.' Assholes.

SO if you're ever looking for a car in the Cleveland/Parma area. Take it from me, do not deal with

Luxury Imports, Inc.
11555 Brookpark Rd. Parma, OH 44130

They will dodge your calls and not call you back after telling you they will.
Completely unprofessional. And by the way, I called the Better Business Bureau.

Well I'm going to go... good'night. kinda...

[Half my ♥'s on ParrisIsland]

Day 7 of what seems like, FOREVER.

I had to write to Pat again last night. I had to tell him how I feel. I told him I'd try to write happier letters...

More problems dealing with the car... all I want is my car back. I just want to drive it! And I feel like Mrs. C is breathing down my back about getting Pat's truck back. He doesn't even want to sell it!! And she's not going to get his payoff. Its not worth that and he knows it! I wish I could tell him. I think he went along with whatever she was saying because it wasn't what he was worried about before he left and they're going to take care of the stuff that needs fixed. Knowing him, he'll know it won't sell and then just got lucky ;)

I don't want to go to work today. I don't want to do anything. Maybe go to the Y. I have to wait around for phone calls so I don't think I'm going to the gym before work. Its 11 now and I have to be at work at 3. Ugh. Maybe tomorrow before work??

Wishing I could fast-forward life RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!

Drum roll please...

. . . . drum rolling . . . .

I got my new car! I am now a proud owner of a . . . .
BMW!

I have pictures but I haven't had time to upload them. I actually didn't have time to blog about my NEW CAR, until know! We got lucky, it was one of the cars I told you were sold before we could even see it. The guy before us couldn't get financed or something! I was excited but hesitant when Pat told me we were going to see it. I didn't know if it would be what I wanted and I didn't know if I'd like it. But I LOVED IT! Its dark blue and a four door. (I didn't really like the style of the two doors) Its a 323i, the small v6 or Pat's pretty sure they consider it a 6 cylinder, not even a v6. But that's okay with me. I love fast cars but mine's luxurious and comfortable and it has SLAPSTICK! So I'm totally content. Every once in a while I wish it was a little faster, but it just makes me want to save my money so I can get a brand new BMW later :) It is a 2000, and I know you might be thinking, "Wow, 10 year old car?". Well I don't care what you say, you haven't driven a 10 year old car like this! It rides like its brand new, has no problems anywhere, body or engine! The leather is a little worn but everything else is like mint-condition! I thank God every day that we found this car and got lucky!! And it turns out my insurance company made a mistake-- in my favor! So I made out double time! I really do think my luck changed on this one. At first I thought because of the way things were going at the beginning of the year, it was going to be another bad one. But things changed! I have a lot to be thankful for and I'm not taking any of it for granted!

I also want to tell you. . . .

I PASSED MY STNA TEST!!!!!

I am now a State Tested Nurses Aide! I'm so happy! I was so stressed and was convinced I failed my skills for a second time. And it was bothering me because I KNOW, I know what I'm doing! But I passed! I can now write my name as Jessica Mondora, STNA!

AGHHH!! :) I am loving life right now! But... I can't be too over confident. I don't know where I'm going to apply, what I'm going to do the rest of the year, or what's going on with Pat and bootcamp.
He didn't leave on February 8th. And he won't be leaving for another month. And then what? There's three months of waiting until he gets back, then another month or two... its throwing everything off track and I don't know what to do! There's so much I want to do, but I can't!

Its a little stressful but I don't feel as stressed as I was at the beginning of the year. Anything can happen though. I'm going to take it as it comes and make the best out of everything. ♥

Love you all,
Jessica, STNA
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Car Shopping!

So, I still am looking for a car! Its been forever, or at least it feels that way. I'm having no luck at all. There's nothing out there. Nothing worth buying and nothing good enough to buy. Thanks Cash for Clunkers. YOU SCREWED ME! And not to mention, car values went up. Went up a lot since last February when I bought my Bravada. I was given about $3000 more than what I paid for my Bravada. Yea, I made out nicely, but try finding a good vehicle with low/decent mileage, that isn't a piece of crap, that is WORTH keeping for more than 2 years... chyea. Okay. Its really frustrating. Although, a few times we have came across some REALLY good finds... but they were so good, unheard of good, that they were sold before we could even look at them or my mother got involved. Yes, my mother. She doesn't understand the car economy right now. Which its not like she searches online for cars all day long! So she has know information, but she won't listen to Pat and believe that he actually KNOWS what he's talking about. And when she doesn FINALLY come around, its too late! We're going to see these BMWs sometime this week so I will be back with some good news, hopefully.

On the other hand. If I ever win the lottery, I know exactly what cars I want. I really like the new Buick Lacrosse. The CXS is really sweet, I like the body style and all the options. After building "my" Lacrosse on their website, I'd need about $42,000 :) It would be a cool car to own. There's also brand new BMWs, Aston Martins, Benz's, and of course, my Jaguar- that I've always wanted! I have high hopes I know. But its okay to dream! Maybe one day my wishes will come true. [anything can happen]

Pat and Dad are watching the Super Bowl, I'm listening but not really caring. I hope the Saints win though!

♥ Sunday Funday!
[mwah]

p.s. WE GOT 16inches of SNOW the other day! ! ! I loved it! We might get another 6inches on Tuesday! :D The snow is the highest I have ever seen it in my life! I ♥ winter!

mini vacation from work!

I'm off from work for FOUR DAYS IN A ROW! :) I'm so happy. Its well deserved and needed! Although last night, before my days off even began on of the kids called me. It was really late though, almost 11. Naturally I didn't even bother listening to the message, I was asleep. Oh well.

I made a ham, egg, and cheese wrap this morning! Its really good. I must say, I am a good cook! I'm continuing to eat healthy but I'm not making much progress. Its probably due to not exercising enough. I keep fluctuating between 2 and 5 pounds, weekly. Its rather upsetting! One week I'll be doing good and then the next week I'll have gained 5 pounds! Hopefully I can control this while Pat's gone. I think it will be a little easier, maybe I'll be less stressed because he'll be away rather than dealing with the stress of "OMG he's going to be gone for THREE MONTHS!" There's a big difference.

I can't remember if I've updated you on my car situation lately. Still haven't received the insurance check. (The holiday may have thrown that off though) and I don't even want to look at cars. Period.

I'm going to do my laundry and play some Army of Two 40th Day and Tomb Raider: Anniversary! And maybe clean up Pat's room and do the dishes for Mrs. Carey.

:D It might actually be a good day!
♥ you all!
JESSI.