Marine Girlfriend Boot Camp Statement

Marine Girlfriend Boot Camp

I feel like I’m in boot camp
Boot Camp for Marine Girlfriends
I’m learning how to become self sufficient
I’m learning my true feelings for my man
I’m learning how to sleep on my own

To not eat, to not sleep, to be deprived of what was “normal living” for me
I’m being questioned and learning how to answer the hardest ones of all.
How do you do it without him?
Why do you put yourself through this?
Why do you stay with him?

My love, my body, and my mind are going through rigorous training.
My heart will face a Crucible
In the end I will come out a Marine Girlfriend
One that knows her duties, commitment, and place in the Marine Corps.

I will learn how to engage in conversation with complete strangers.
I will learn to use and be patient with the United States Post Office.
I will learn how to train my mind, not to break down every second of the day
I will do all of this in 13 weeks, miles away from my man.

And on his graduation day, I too will have accomplished something.
I will have stood behind him and stood there for myself.
I will come out with honor, courage, sacrifice,
and above all commitment to my Marine.

Day 21 [I missed a Day!]

Its okay, I wasn't laying in bed all day yesterday being depressed! I was actually with the girls getting my mind off things and having a good day. It was nice. I still would rather be with Pat and missed him, but I didn't think about him ALLLLLL day long. We talked about him a lot though. =) Its bittersweet.

Fits the day:
"Eat that damn chocolate cake, get your hair wet, love someone, dance in those muddy puddles, tell someone off, draw pictures with crayons like you're still 6 years old and then give it to someone who is very important to you. Take a nap, go on a vacation, do a cartwheel, make your own recipe, dance like no one sees you, paint each nail a different color, take bubble bath, laugh at a corny joke. Get on that table and dance, pick strawberries, take a jog, plant a garden, make an ugly shirt and wear it all day, learn a new language, write a song, date someone you usually wouldn't go for, make a scrapbook, go on a picnic, relax in the sun, make your own home video, kiss the unkissed, hug the unhugged, love the unloved, and life your life to the fullest. So when you're standing in front of heaven's gate that chosen day, you'll have no regrets, no sorrows, no disappointments."

I'm doing good. Pat's doing good. Everything is good. ♥

Some superheroes wear capes; mine wears combat boots

"This is for those of us who would rather wear dog tags than diamonds. For those of us who still sleep with stuffed animals, just because he got them for us. This goes out to those of us who never let go of her cell phone. This goes out to those of us whose heart swells with pride every time the national anthem is played. This goes out to the proud women who stand tall behind a United States Marine. We sit and we wait, for a letter, for a phone call, and for the lucky ones; a homecoming. Many people don't understand this life; they say it's unfair, they say they couldn't do it. Well, here is our response... Do not tell us you're sorry, or that you know how we feel. Don't try to make us laugh when we're sad, we don't want to laugh, we'd rather sit and think about our man. We may not be "happy" with all of this, but we don't mind waiting."
USMC♥

[Save a humvee, ride a Marine]

These made me smile ;)

From Henry Rollins' Black Coffee Blues [cont. day 2/88]

#39: I walk straight lines. I walk through summer nights. I walk the silver rope of dreams. I walk through dawns of dawns. There's not a lot that isn't dying. I see people parading in front of each other like insect in a killing jar, watching each other die. I walk the straight lines through the Christ machines. Through the eyes of the throwaway people. Through the wards and the shores and the cracks in the skulls of the sidewalks. Through love's howling vacancy. I am the freedom soil. I dig my own grave. I resurrect myself every night. I am all things to myself. I walk the straight lines. I walk the spider's jailhouse. I walk the think line, the thin line, the white line and all the lines in between. I wish I could trade in my eyes.
Henry Rollins

♥everythingsbittersweet.

I pledge...

"I pledge no allegiance to the flag of the undeniable mistakes of America, which to the plutocracy for which it stands so many nations and their gods have become invisible, with liberty and justice reserved for a precious chosen few. Let our allegiances lie with those betrayed by the facade for the calm is an illusion..."

dis·com·bob·u·late

"The most essential elements of success in life are a purpose, increasing industry, temperate habits, scrupulous regard for one's word ... courteous manners, a generous regard for the rights of others, and, above all, integrity which admits of no qualification or variation." William A. Clark

Pat and I watched 2012 yesterday morning. I liked it, it was intense! I don't know if it was because we had just woken up, but I was on the edge of my seat, wondering what was going to happen next. I also cried. Its not lame! I just thought about if something like that actually happened and all the people that died. And it upset me that they 'sold' the tickets instead of saving as much of our race as we could. How could we actually do something like that? And not tell the world we knew this was going to happen? I thought the arks were a good concept. Do you think they have something like that in the works now? I'm not sure. I hope at least they have started to think about something like that. Our planet is changing... and its probably not a bad idea to prepare for the future.

I need to win the lottery! I need to get my bills in order, I feel so overwhelmed though. They aren't that bad but I am struggling. And everything else on top of the bills, makes it even worse! I don't feel in control. I'm trying to work on them now but I feel like I'm avoiding them..... . . . . . . . . . . .

And I feel fat.

): Bye.