:) just had the best conversation ever.

I can't even put into words how I feel. I feel amazing :) I feel like I just fell in love all over again. When you can hear and feel the emotion in someone's words, it's very reassuring. Especially when they are miles and miles away from you. I feel so much better now. I don't know why I get so insecure sometimes and let things bother me when I know they aren't true or aren't going to happen! I have a problem of letting what people say get to me. I don't know why I listen to them. I know what my relationship is and what it is based on and everything. Sometimes my thoughts just run wild. I have to remember, girls just want everyone to be miserable like them and bring them down. And are jealous or upset that they don't have what you have. That's why they say the things they do. 

:) Thanks to Audri, Amanda, and Ash. I don't know what I would do without them if they weren't here to help me while Pat's gone. They keep me grounded♥

I love you so much Pat. I can't wait to be in your arms again and have you all to myself:)

Day 21 [I missed a Day!]

Its okay, I wasn't laying in bed all day yesterday being depressed! I was actually with the girls getting my mind off things and having a good day. It was nice. I still would rather be with Pat and missed him, but I didn't think about him ALLLLLL day long. We talked about him a lot though. =) Its bittersweet.

Fits the day:
"Eat that damn chocolate cake, get your hair wet, love someone, dance in those muddy puddles, tell someone off, draw pictures with crayons like you're still 6 years old and then give it to someone who is very important to you. Take a nap, go on a vacation, do a cartwheel, make your own recipe, dance like no one sees you, paint each nail a different color, take bubble bath, laugh at a corny joke. Get on that table and dance, pick strawberries, take a jog, plant a garden, make an ugly shirt and wear it all day, learn a new language, write a song, date someone you usually wouldn't go for, make a scrapbook, go on a picnic, relax in the sun, make your own home video, kiss the unkissed, hug the unhugged, love the unloved, and life your life to the fullest. So when you're standing in front of heaven's gate that chosen day, you'll have no regrets, no sorrows, no disappointments."

I'm doing good. Pat's doing good. Everything is good. ♥

Day 12 [I ♥ Pat Carey!]

No letter today :\ Maybe next week.
Last night was rough but the days are getting a little easier.
He's still all I think about, all day long.

Might have some girls over tonight for a bonfire.
Mom and Ash come home from Florida tomorrow.
Shadow's been sleeping in my room with me. That little furball♥

I'm in the sunken gathering room. On the computer. With The Little Mermaid playing
in the background. I'm such a kid.
I'm tired.
Its really hot today. And the air isn't on in the house yet.
But it needs to be today. The fans just aren't doing it.

I miss my babe.
♥you
-Jessi