Calls from Afghaniland !

First let me say, facebook sucks in the early AM. At first I thought it was my internet connection, but it's not. It's just facebook. And I can't successfully creep! :D

I was up and down all last night. I have a cold and that may have been keeping me up, but I really think its just blind stress. I don't feel stressed, like before, when I couldn't shut my brain off and go to sleep. I don't know, but it sucks! And I think I'm getting old, fast! I didn't drink a lot before bed and I literally went to the bathroom last night at least 5 times. What if I'm having problems with my bladder on top of everything else?!

Besides not sleeping well (I wasn't mad and cranky about it though) we got a call from Rob! I don't know if Pat had talked to him since the last time, but I thought we weren't going to hear from him for a while. At first I thought it was Pat's command or something, saying he was late or he had to come in even earlier. (That's happened before). But it was 'Wobert' :)

After Pat talked to him it was time for him to get ready. So I watched Pat get ready for work as usual. He has PT this morning, well he thinks a PFT, so he had to wear his green running suit. Not only is it the most comfortable thing he says he's ever worn, I think it's cute. After he left at 0500, I decided to just stay up. I was going to clean, but then I decided to check Netflix. Or possibly play Gears of War 2. Well I was searching Netflix and found an old movie i used to watch as a kid! I didn't expect to come across it at all, so it was like a blast from the past! It's called The Frog Prince and it's based on a children's story but the theatrics used to actually scare me. It's so funny, now I watch things that I used to watch and it's amazing what how our minds interpret things when we are young. I had such a vivid imagination. I came across Pippi Long Stalking too! Gotta ♥ Netflix!

I think I'm going to watch a little of something and then clean :)
Hope everyone has a good day!

pow! pow!

Mom, Pat, and I went to the Sportsman's Lodge! I was definitely nervous to shoot at first. Infact, it took me around 10 minutes to stop jumping at the sound of every gun shot. But you get used to it very quickly. Mom and I were sharing a Beretta m9 and Pat was shooting a Springfield XD .45. He let me try the .45 and if I had shot with it more, I would have gotten used to it. This being the first time I've ever shot a pistol, I did fairly well. I was happy :) The first 15 minutes, I was anticipating the shot before I even pulled the trigger which told me I was still 'afraid' of the pistol. Almost 90% of the time I was afraid to pull the trigger but I wanted to see if I could shoot the little x in the silhouette. So I was determined to overcome the fear. Besides I can't hurt paper. I know now that it would be hard for me to pull the trigger if I needed to shoot someone. But when am I going to need to shoot someone?! Hopefully my house never gets broken into.
I do want to go to the shooting range now, every week! And Rachel and Kailey want to come too. Keith got Rachel a pistol for their wedding day gift. I think that's so cute! I would love for Pat to buy me one. And I'd probably stick to the girly gun, 9mm. But I think I want to try the .45 again! I'm still 'afraid' of guns though. I can't get the thought out of my head that I'm going to accidentally drop the gun and its going to fire and shoot me or someone. Or that I'm going to fire it and a rogue bullet with a mind of its own is going to go for the nearest human. OR that by some strange act of God, I'll be mentally challenged for a second and have the gun pointed at myself! I know, sounds crazy, but I'm not stupid, I realize what one bullet can do. And when you feel the power, even in a little Beretta 9mm with its smaller sized bullets, its like you're God. You can choose who dies and who doesn't. Provided you're a good shot. Which I'm not a pro. And I think my eyes are royally f'ed up. I know I have astigmatisms in both eyes. Well this old fellar, Marine, was telling us to try not to close one eye. And to aim with both open. I can't see when I do this. Focusing on or past the pistol sights. I tried when I was at home too, with anything. For example, bringing my finger back and forth to my face. No go. I can 'see' my finger but nothing around it or past it. And when I close my eye I still do have problems. My eyes are so messed up and I'm pretty sure with astigmatisms, I don't qualify to have lasik eye surgery. Bummer. I don't want to be blind, and I'm definitely headed that way. My prescriptions for both eyes, changes every couple months. I just got these contacts in August and by November, I was having trouble seeing with them. And my glasses don't help anymore and they were from March.
Ughhh. And I'm putting off going to the doc for my stomach problem. Which is probably a huge mistake but, I  don't mind right now. I just don't want to know.

Pat's asking me to clean his boots for work tomorrow. So I'm gonna make the best of that and watch Step Brothers ;) peacexoxo

i ♥ winter

ITS SNOWING AGAIN!

I'm so happy! :D Apparently, there's a storm coming later tonight and it looks like it already started! Its not snowing very hard but fast and consistently. Its so pretty. I love the snow!

You know what else I love? SHOPPING! And even better doing it online! There are so many benefits to shopping online! More to select from, better and more deals, its easier! Instead of scrummaging through a store and through tons of racks, I have it all at my fingertips! Even though I shouldn't have I bought some stuff from Victoria's Secret. A girl can never have enough panties and bras! Plus they had a TON of sales! Really good prices. Now I'm at Old Navy looking for something to buy with my Reward Card. :) Shopping solves EVERYTHING!

I finished most of the laundry and have to finish cleaning up Pat's room. It bugs me when its a mess. Its like all the clothes and disorganization, clutters my head! I hate it, it makes me feel out of control and lost. I think I'm going to take a shower though... and then call Pat to come get me and we'll go back the Y. I started up again, going regularly. I feel good. But I don't seem to be losing weight like I should... I think I'm doing something wrong but I can't figure it out. I dunno.

Peace.Love
♥

happy hour!

amaretto sour anyone?
=)

i went to the BMV. what a depressing place that is. they're always so... mean and unresponsive. i dreaded going but i figured i'd get it out of the way. i didn't have to wait long but i kinda got screwed. my birthday's in april, so either i renew my plates then or buy ones for 2010. well i would have totally bought them for 2010 except they were $81.25, I only had $80 with me!!! (Damn Haircut!) so i had to buy them for april (only $30.25). oh well. now i just have to remember to go back and get them renewed. i'll have to make a note.

i was going to visit sgt. dudley yesterday when i was at the mall... but i decided not to. maybe i should have. it might have kept my morale up. i'm still exercising and watching what i eat. its hard with it being so cold out, though. when it gets warmer, i'll have no problems going for walks and runs. it just feels like it will never get above 35 degrees!!! im tired of winter.

____ i know... i love winter, and even i'm saying i'm tired of her.

i just want to get out of here NOW. ii want to lose the weight and join and be gone from this shit hole. i can't stand anything about this place. nothing. although as much as i HATE my job and think its going to be the death of me... i will proudly say i made $16000 last year! that's awesome considering where i work and what i do. and i'm getting ALOT back from taxes =) i'm happy about that.

i think i'm going to finish cleaning.
riight.