The worst feeling in the world...

...is to miss a call or a Facebook chat from your husband in Afghanistan. 


And I did today. 
I figured something was up because he never came on last night. I waited and waited and waited. So today I got off work, went to the grocery store and the gas station and came home. Got on the computer and realized the little green dot next to Pat's name at the bottom of my screen. I clicked on the chat box and there were a few chats from him :( He was on this afternoon and I was at work. I think it was right after my 'lunch' break. Ughh. Every time, I don't know what comes over me, but this drowning feeling happens. Knowing I could have talked to him and now I have no idea when the next time will be. It could be weeks. Or worse, months. My heart drops every time.


I miss him so much. It's "deal-able" if I can talk to him. But even then it's still hard. Like when I do get to talk to him and it's only for a few minutes. Then I'm left with this sick, empty, lonely feeling. 


I know I should be happy I even got a few minutes but it leaves you with this hopeless feeling. Like you didn't get to say enough or anything at all. 


:( I hope this depo goes a little faster. It's starting to kill me and it hasn't been that long.


I love you Patrick, till forever. ♥

One of those Sundays...

I love my Marine♥ But, I'm beginning to find it annoying that he fights for your right to bitch and complain all day long and be rude about. No one ever says, "Wow, I'm lucky to NOT live in a 3rd world country, where people are starving every day and disease is taking over". No one ever is thankful that they don't live in Europe where gas has always been more than $4.00! When people complain about our economic situation or politics they don't agree with, they will deliberately not talk about how our military is being affected, and that the military doesn't matter as much as teachers or doctors. This is the reason I'm on this rant.(Saw something on Facebook) I don't understand how you can think a country's military is not important. And then people who say the troops don't do as much as some doctors/teachers/etc. WHATTTTT? How can you say that? I know many teachers that didn't teach me ANYTHING in school and weren't in the classroom half the time. Yet my area has good test scores. I studied on MY OWN and I comprehended the subjects, not them. I see the doctor and I'm not sure why they are paid as much as they are to tell me things I can figure out on my own. And then to suggest a treatment that doesn't work, they just said "let's try this". Explain to me how someone can say something they do more than our troops. Ughhh I don't know. I just needed to rant. 


Be thankful for your lives. Most of the world does not live the way we do and we're taking it for granted. Someone always has it worse than you do.

I don't care what people say about Charlie Sheen...

Two and a Half Men is the funniest show on tv. Period. And Charlie Sheen makes the show, but the other characters are funny. I really could careless what Sheen does with his own life but I do care whether he's on the show or not. Just needed to get that off my chest.


I also need to put it out there that I'm so annoyed with our Unit. They have a private facebook group and I don't care what info I get from it, I'm about ready to leave the group. It's pathetic that instead of just messaging the person (who OBVIOUSLY doesn't realize they made an 'opsec' violation on a PRIVATE, repeat, PRIVATE group that ONLY THE MEMBERS ON IT WHO ALL KNOW THE INFO CAN SEE) they post, repeatedly, discussions and reminders. Then somehow you'll see them say "we're aware of violations on personal fb's and blah blah" Who is friends with the 'admins' that are dumb enough to put shit on their fb's that they can see? That's exactly why I'm not adding any of them. The only people I add are wives who I know don't interact on the group. It's just ridiculous that they don't privately message the person and tell them what they did. I've read the opsec rules multiple times and honestly some people interpret them wrong. So I don't agree with some of the things some people say. Its just annoying that they can be HELPFUL and PROFESSIONAL instead of know-it-all, rude, ready to punish someone, kind of people.


It's amazing how someone 30 years older than me can be completely oblivious to how you talk and deal with the public. Having some manners, professionalism, intelligence, and compassion can get you a long way in life and these people are seriously lacking it here.


It's no wonder why only a handful of people actually participate in the group. And why the FRO doesn't have many volunteers.


I've been holding that in for a while, hoping things would change and it was just a bad first impression I had. Yup, I was wrong.

PS. I'm missing Pat, but not doing too bad. I'm not sure why. Of course I've had my moments and cried, but I think I feel less stressed then when he's here! I am going through a few things that are a little stressful, but I'm gonna let them ride out and see what happens. EMV is around 5 to 6 weeks long but we're hoping it gets cut a little short so we get a longer leave. Who knows. I know the dates probably are going to change a few times. I'll be surprised if the stay the same, so far they have. We'll see though.


Rob's doing good :) I need to start getting a care package ready for him, I just don't have extra money to buy him candy and stuff. He's been able to make many phone calls and be on the internet a LOT since he's been there... I doubt it will last much longer though. I know my friend says a lot of her clients tell her they all get to talk to their husbands like once a week at least, during deployment. But I'm not convinced that includes grunts... I know a lot of families and girls that didn't hear from their grunt. But when ever I talk to a girl that says she does, her husband's usually pog. I dunno. I hope I'm wrong, I would love to hear from Pat a lot while he's gone.

Calls from Afghaniland !

First let me say, facebook sucks in the early AM. At first I thought it was my internet connection, but it's not. It's just facebook. And I can't successfully creep! :D

I was up and down all last night. I have a cold and that may have been keeping me up, but I really think its just blind stress. I don't feel stressed, like before, when I couldn't shut my brain off and go to sleep. I don't know, but it sucks! And I think I'm getting old, fast! I didn't drink a lot before bed and I literally went to the bathroom last night at least 5 times. What if I'm having problems with my bladder on top of everything else?!

Besides not sleeping well (I wasn't mad and cranky about it though) we got a call from Rob! I don't know if Pat had talked to him since the last time, but I thought we weren't going to hear from him for a while. At first I thought it was Pat's command or something, saying he was late or he had to come in even earlier. (That's happened before). But it was 'Wobert' :)

After Pat talked to him it was time for him to get ready. So I watched Pat get ready for work as usual. He has PT this morning, well he thinks a PFT, so he had to wear his green running suit. Not only is it the most comfortable thing he says he's ever worn, I think it's cute. After he left at 0500, I decided to just stay up. I was going to clean, but then I decided to check Netflix. Or possibly play Gears of War 2. Well I was searching Netflix and found an old movie i used to watch as a kid! I didn't expect to come across it at all, so it was like a blast from the past! It's called The Frog Prince and it's based on a children's story but the theatrics used to actually scare me. It's so funny, now I watch things that I used to watch and it's amazing what how our minds interpret things when we are young. I had such a vivid imagination. I came across Pippi Long Stalking too! Gotta ♥ Netflix!

I think I'm going to watch a little of something and then clean :)
Hope everyone has a good day!

When our biggest problems were which boy to like and what clothes to wear tomorrow...

--> Facebook album <--

Check that album out! Its old school! From back in the day... the good times. :) Good memories with good people! ♥it!

I also want to commend former Pres. Bill Clinton. I think it was really cool he went over and 'saved' those girls. I heard that they were told that's how they would be let free... if Bill Clinton would come to the country... doesn't that say something? Instead of our current president, or George Bush... they wanted Bill Clinton... hmmm??

Peace0ut!