Try and Try Again.

Update: I went to TDDS School of Allied Health for the STNA (State Tested Nurses Aide) program. It was about three weeks long and I really enjoyed it. My classmates were really nice and we had fun and clinicals we really not that bad! After you complete the course you take the state test. Our dates were for like three weeks after the class ended. Well, as you know, I got in an accident on the thirteenth of December. My scheduled state test was that week! The seventeenth! After talking to everyone, I decided not to cancel the test. I was feeling better and was able to move so I could still do the skills. The test is composed of a 70 question written test and then you have to perform 5 skills. Well I passed the written with a 95%. And I passed four skills 100%, perfectly, NO FLAWS. But I failed one, vest restraints! Now, I was having trouble. And I kept checking and re-checking my slip knots and the position on the strap where I tied it. I know for a fact I tied it to the non movable part of the bed and I watched the evaluator pull the knots and they came perfectly undone (which is all part of the critical step.) BUT I still failed. I think what happened was I thought where the strap came down and where I would tie it(right where it fell) was not the movable part so I tied them a little higher then the residents waist. Which would not be the correct part. I was really upset when I found out, but I had a feeling I wasn't going to pass. The accident happening five days before threw everything off, and I couldn't study by acting the skills out since I was in so much pain. Ugh... now I have to wait to find out when the next test dates are and pay for the skills portion again. Luckily my Mom said she would cover me. It just sucks because in this field you can't even use vest restraints unless it is absolutely ordered by a physician. So having it as one of the 25 skills sucks because I shouldn't know how to do it since its dangerous and wrong to put a resident in a restraint!

I'm going to go to the reviews though and try my hardest. I'm just afraid I'll be really nervous again and get hard skills. Besides vest restraint my other skills were handwashing(everyone has to do), denture care, weighing an ambulatory resident, and changing an occupied bed! Those are nice and easy! I might get PERI CARE, FEEDING, or even VITAL SIGNS next time! And you only have 35 minutes to do all five!

I am going to keep my head up though :) and practise, practice, practice!
♥ jessi.

its winter time again... ♥

I love winter. And I love the snow. But I don't love ice. And not knowing its going to be covering the roads completely! And not knowing that the salt trucks were not sent out before or during the rain!! Picture this. Walking outside, down the steps to the sidewalk and sliding the first footstep down! Then sliding all the way to the end of the driveway where your car is parked. Then getting in your car regardless of the situation you're in, because you HAVE to go to work. Call your boyfriend before you leave the driveway to tell him not to go ANYWHERE this morning because it looks like a sheet of ice is covering everything. Start you car, defrost the ice on the windshield. Leave the driveway, then the development, thinking "not all the roads are icy". Which they weren't! Didn't slide once until the bend. The next part happened fast and was very chaotic. After rounding the slight bend, I noticed my car starting to pull in the other lane, then it was all over. Back and forth for the next few seconds, the wildily being thrown across the road and back over and over. Next the car starts to spin, fast. I can't see anything, but the tree coming at me. I start to scream and suppose I gripped the steering wheel. Bounced off of the tree and I think out of reflex put my foot down. Which happened to land on the GAS PEDAL which in turn made the car slam into, DEAD ON, in ANOTHER TREE! A few seconds went by and I think I realized what happened, I started to cry and scream because I realized I was pinned in my seat. At this point I think my windown wasn't broken out... because I distinctly remember seeing it. But I don't know. I lost my phone and couldn't find my glasses. Minutes went by and I realized my door wouldn't budge. I couldn't grab my phone. All I wanted to do was to call for help. Finally I reached my phone and dialed 911. After this was HELL. In short, a half hour went by and I was trapped in the car, in pain. Two more wrecks occured, which in turn made the cop think one was my wreck and didn't see me. My manager who I called crying to say I got in an accident, got in one herself. They had to use the Jaws of Life to get me out, which are very scary. I was put into the ambulance which got stuck and almost wrecked itself! Another half hour went by as we waited for salt trucks or someone to help us. As were sitting there, the driver is saying to brace ourselves, a car is coming right for us. This happened twice. Then I could hear him say, "a car just took out a mailbox, that car just wrecked" etc etc. It was hell. And the ER is a whole different story. I'm thankful for my friends and my family and I am thankful I came out of it. My car is demolished and that's sad. I really liked that car.

No one asked me if my life flashed before my eyes. Something did... I can't say exactly what it was, but I remember thinking about something... or more importantly someone. I'm not sure.

Another weird thing, Pat asked me before I walked out, not to go to work that morning. And of course I said no, I have to work. Amd he asked me one more time, "don't go to work today".

♥

Wright-Patterson Air Force Museum

Where the beats at?

I am so tired of there not being good music out. Where did all the artists and beats go? What is going on? 8 out of 10 songs, suck anymore! And even worse, artists who had good songs, can't seem to keep bringing good ones. Its very frustrating for me. That's why I refuse to buy CDs. ITS NOT WORTH MY MONEY AT ALL!! If you can't make good music, then I'm not spending my hard earned money on you. If, after I download something, and it sounds good, I might buy the album. (But normally I don't because I'M THE WORKING POOR!) And its summer which makes it more frustrating, I want good music during the summer and I'm only finding good, old songs from previous years. And even those, are getting boring to listen to. Music is very important to me and I take this seriously! [I needed to vent about that, sorry]

♥ jes

kick start!

Mom got me a gym membership at Astre today for my birthday! Very excited. Its perfect! They have two pools, a whirl pool, weight room, free weights, classes, ellipticals, steppers, bikes, and so much more! We went today and did an hour. Its great to have help from my mom. She's very motivating and I know she'll go every day with me! And of course I'll go myself. I need to get in shape! I think I've let it go long enough and I don't want health problems. (And I'm still contemplating the Marines... or maybe the Navy.) I don't know yet. I just want out of OHIO. =)

My 22nd birthday weekend was AWESOME! Too much drinking though. (Gotta work double time at the gym!) We had a bonfire the family dinner Wednesday (before Dad left) at the Ice House... 40 cent wings! Friday, bonfire at the house with Ash, Jay, Pat, Andre, Mel, and Mom. Saturday, Twilight afternoon with Mel! and then to Relic's show at the Cellar with Wendy, Mike, Mel, Pat, Mom, Amanda, and her sister Rachel. Then Sunday we had the cookout at the house. Mel and Mike brought Sebastian! And they got me a cake =) My 22nd years have been up and down, sad and happy, brutal at times... but there are so many memories. We reminisced at the bonfire it was really entertaining! Hopefully there will be tons more, with old and new friends and family!

I also had my doctor appointment this morning. My surgery is the 18th of May. Crossing out fingers that its benign, not a tumor and just a sebaceous cyst! There's a small chance it could be bad... and when you push on it it feels like it runs down into my back which could be a tumor and not a cyst. I'll take it as it comes, though. No worries!!

Watching Intervention and gotta take a shower! Work in the AM!
Love all!