43 Dayssss!! Ughhhhh

Pat graduates from SOI on November 5th, that's 43 days away!!!! Seems like a lifetime. I hate waiting. I'm so impatient and I'm running out of motivation to stay happy and not depressed. I'm running out of things to do. I need a hobby or something. A serious hobby, one that will keep my busy, possibly make me money, make me feel good, and one I can actually complete and probably would be easiest to repeat. I have ideas. But no money to get anything started. Nor really the time, like if I wanted to start something I may need a class or two for... I work to much for that.


I miss Pat. It sucks that I only have one paycheck before Columbus Day and he gets a 96. I don't have any money though. I owe Dad and my car will be getting done in the next 2 weeks. And the worst part is, I have the days off then, I totally could come up for like a day or two!!! Knowing it's an off base libo too... that would have been nice. We could have checked out the area since he's probably going to be stationed there. Well, I guess it'll be his one time to party with the guys. I'm SURE that's what they will end up doing. I wonder if he will drink... ??

Ahh! Not going to stress myself about wondering what he's going to do being that I'm not there! He goes every day wondering what I'm doing and if I'm partying and etc. Even though he knows damn well I'm not!


:) I love you Pat.


♥

Staying busy keeps you young!

Busy week:
Monday: Doc appt. at 1145am/Pay car insurance(I go to the office to do this)/walk with Jenn and Tar-ah/Paint toe nails/Gym at 530pm/Intervention Party starting at 900pm in Salem/At some point, do bills

Tuesday: Help Uncle Tommy pay a bill online at YiaYia's (His computer is older and his Internet Explorer it out of date, it can't load most sites)/Leetonia Bike Trail- walk or bike/Gym at 530pm/Walk with Melissa at 700ishpm

Wednesday: Relaxing. Going to go with the flow, what ever comes up, comes up. ((Def gym though!))

Thursday: Work 600am to 300pm/Movie afternoon with Melissa!/Gym at 530pm/Walk with Mel at 700pm/working on resume

Friday: Work 530am to 300pm/Eye appt. 400pm/Gym 530pm/Maybe walk with Mel(Friday's laundry day for her)/Shopping Day {maybe Wal-Mart}/Party in Salem {possibly}

It might not seem like a lot to you guys... but with work in between there and if I'm not sleeping well at night, it'll really takes a tole on me. Not to mention any stress or drama that happens this week. :\ life is life, right?

Drama update:
Wendy transferred to ATown Sheetz (every ones still talking about this)
Kristys Shower/wedding... heard some gossip about this
Sisters friend drives all the way to NCarolina (from Ohio) to pick up a boy, lies to 'rents
MTV MAwards, Eminem fiasco
Cousin has friend move into apartment complex that annoys the eff out of her
Mom has two jobs pending this week, which one does she choose?
Something happened to co-worker... dealing with cheating...
... seems like our lives revolve around drama.

OMFG!

So we found out that Brian's show wasn't until tonight. But we wanted to go out anyway. Mel, Pat and I met Wendy and Bobbi at Salsitas and sat and talked over BIG frozen margaritas. I got the strawberry and it was amazing! Afterwards we decided to be spontaneous and went to the Babylon. The local strip joint!!! I was nervous as hell and didn't know what to expect... and wow. It was crazy! I still can't believe I actually walked in there! We had a blast. Yes the girls are trashy. No I'm NOT bi. But it was nice in there. The chairs were comfy and the drinks were cheap! Let me tell you how good of friends and a boyfriend I have. THEY BOUGHT ME A F'N LAP DANCE!!!!!!!! I wanted to DIE! It was the weirdest/nastiest/funniest thing ever!!!!! And the girl wounldn't leave me alone!!! She liked me WAYYYYY too much.

I told them I was going to sanitize myself today!

crazy.
I do love my friends, though!

Time Away

My computer died :( Apparently I need a new hard drive.
I'm on Dad's laptop and its messed up too! Well just the keyboard... so if you see the words run together and letters missing... that's why.

I read my last entry and it seems like it was only last month! I was BLITZED that night. BAD. And it came with NO warning. I knew I was drinking a lot. But not that much! It was fun. We shared stories, laughed, joked, debated, all around the warm fire. It was a lot of fun, but the next morning wasn't.

JumpingForward:
I read a few books in the last couple of months. I re-read Stephen King's, Pet Semetary in honor of Halloween :) It was spooky, but I didn't finish it. I also read Dean R. Koontz's, The Servants of Twilight. He is very much like Stephen King, but his writing is slightly different. There were a few times I jumped ahead a few paragraphs. I also started reading True Notebooks by Mark Salzman. Very good. I'm trying to read un-normal books. Books I wouldn't normally read, books I usually start but never finish. Broaden my horizons. :D

A lot else has happened in the last few months that I would like to note on:
Our beloved Megan Martin took her life on Halloween. Only seventeen. It was very hard to deal with.
Barack Obama won the election. I think you'd have to be living in a cave, not to know that one.
I've become more and more bitter, agitated, bitchy. But I officially have NO insurance so I can't go to the doc's. So I look for other ways to escape this hell.
Jay turned 21. Had a crazy party at his house that was pretty lame but resulted in Ashley and I not speaking.
Turkey Day was yesterday and not enjoyable. As every holiday seems like it will be this year.
Pat has lost 20lbs. He still has to go 20 more. Then he's off to Parris Island

I wish I could get a new laptop for Christmas. Its not that I need the internet, Myspace, or my email... its like my escape. I find it easier to write on here then in a notebook. And it sucks that I know it could be weeks or days before I'm able to write again. :(