Pat's in the field. There was a chance he'd be home Sat or Sun since he we scheduled for humvee courses on Mon. He'll be staying in the field the whole time (10 days) now. Okay, that's fine. I can deal with that.
For some reason this month's electricity bill wasn't debited from our bank account when Pat signed up for automatic drafts. Okay, so I'm going to call and find out what the f happened. No prob.
My mom is visiting and stresses me out sometimes. And sometimes we argue and I snap at her. Okay, dealing with that calmly. . .
Got burned while tanning. On my butt. Okay. I gotchu.
Drive 2 hours for a day-trip to find the nearest HOBBY LOBBY and we get alllllllllllll the way there, no problems at all. AND MY CURSED CAR BREAKS DOWN!!!!!!!!!
I've had it since New Years. Mom was driving it after it was fixed for like a month or maybe a little longer. I drove it all the way here. 600+ MILES. No problems. And it just stops working! I don't get it! The car doesn't give you any inclination that something might be wrong with it. IT JUST BREAKS DOWN!
Well we were completely screwed. 2 hrs from home. Luckily literally passed a BMW dealership 2 minute before it broke down. But we still had to tow it. It would start and 'run', not die, but if you hit the gas(in gear) it would just rev and go no where. Including not go anywhere in reverse!
Got it to the dealership. Sounds like the transmission. ;[ NOT GOOD. Its completely unrelated to the problem we just had fixed!!!!!! This is bad because that problem is covered by warranty. I'm nervous that even though I have extended warranty, the warranty company will find some reason not to cover this. I googled transmissions for my car. First off, found out a lot of these models, same year, have tranny problems at 64000 miles. My car has less then 60000 miles. And some of the comments claimed dealerships quoted them anywhere from $2500-$5500 to fix.
I obviously and freaking out. I have to wait till Monday to call the service manager back with the warranty co. 800 number. So I have to sit on it and think about it every waking minute. Then I have to wait till the warranty people check it out to see what they say. Then I have to wait till the dealership can even work on it!
I just want to know right this minute whether the warranty is going to cover it. Period.
I want to die. And I want to talk to my husband about this. He would know exactly what to do.
January 22, 2011
December 29, 2010
countless nights
On countless nights I lay awake crying.
I rub your head, trying to never forget the way your hair feels against my skin.
Memorizing the shape of your lips and how long your eyelashs are
Trying to burn the image of you in my mind forever.
I never want to forget you.
As I lay awake thinking of all the memories we've shared,
I try to match your breathing and slow my heart beat down to yours.
I wonder what you're dreaming of.
I try to decipher every grunt you make and wonder what battle you're fighting tonight.
When you kick your legs and turn over, I wonder who you were running from.
I wonder if I fall asleep,
if I could save you in my dream.
As I lay awake crying
I hope you'll wake and wipe my tears as they fall.
As I lay awake watching you sleep,
I think of how much I don't want you to leave
Wishing I could tell you.
As I lay awake thinking of what you're going to go through,
I know you're laying next to me safe.
You're here with me now and that's all that matters.
As I lay awake crying I think if you're going there to fight for me? And if you're going to come back like you promise?
As I lay awake I eventually wipe my tears and know I have another day with you.
If I could give you anything
I would give you my heart to wear around your neck like I would wear your dog tags around mine.
If I could fight for you,
Like you fight for me
I would.
But I do, every night.
Every night as I lay awake and pray that I am so thankful to have someone to miss so much.
Someone I will always wait for until they come back home.
I lay awake knowing I'm putting up a good fight
And I'm strong enough
My love for you could never fail
As I lay awake
Know I'll be laying here every day
Waiting while you're gone
-J.A.C.
I rub your head, trying to never forget the way your hair feels against my skin.
Memorizing the shape of your lips and how long your eyelashs are
Trying to burn the image of you in my mind forever.
I never want to forget you.
As I lay awake thinking of all the memories we've shared,
I try to match your breathing and slow my heart beat down to yours.
I wonder what you're dreaming of.
I try to decipher every grunt you make and wonder what battle you're fighting tonight.
When you kick your legs and turn over, I wonder who you were running from.
I wonder if I fall asleep,
if I could save you in my dream.
As I lay awake crying
I hope you'll wake and wipe my tears as they fall.
As I lay awake watching you sleep,
I think of how much I don't want you to leave
Wishing I could tell you.
As I lay awake thinking of what you're going to go through,
I know you're laying next to me safe.
You're here with me now and that's all that matters.
As I lay awake crying I think if you're going there to fight for me? And if you're going to come back like you promise?
As I lay awake I eventually wipe my tears and know I have another day with you.
If I could give you anything
I would give you my heart to wear around your neck like I would wear your dog tags around mine.
If I could fight for you,
Like you fight for me
I would.
But I do, every night.
Every night as I lay awake and pray that I am so thankful to have someone to miss so much.
Someone I will always wait for until they come back home.
I lay awake knowing I'm putting up a good fight
And I'm strong enough
My love for you could never fail
As I lay awake
Know I'll be laying here every day
Waiting while you're gone
-J.A.C.
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December 17, 2010
Operation Always Faithful book is on the market ;)
Lulu.com Link to purchase Operation Always Faithful
For anyone who doesn't know, it's a compilation of true stories from girls in relationships with their service men (I'm not sure if it's just Marine couples or not)
But the reason I'm actually blogging about it (I do plan on buying it eventually) is because I didn't know there was a site where you could publish your own books! Haha, I was excited about the book but even more excited about the site... I have to check the site out more but this might come in handy! I want to make a cook book of my fave recipes and you can do this on this site (lulu.com) I'm excited to say the least!
Pat's got back from the field yesterday! I had a feeling they would be done early. He was pretty heated about everything that had gone on in the field. I felt bad. But let's just say that was the 'funnest' night Pat and I had in a long time! If ya know what I mean ;) It was like when we were younger... I know, we're not that old -- BUT! Things have changed! Haha. I mean we've been together almost 7 years, it felt like we had already been married 4 years ago!!! I'm not complaining though, it was just nice to have 'fun' like we used too.
Today he's been standing by since he got to base. He's just laying in the car. I understand that our military might not have something to do every single day and when you think about it, active duty is like salary. They're on-call 24/7 and have no set hours of work because they aren't paid by the hour. I just don't understand how they can't find SOMETHING to do. Like, why don't they have classes they can attend like maybe ones where they get a certificate or something. Or why aren't there more first-aid classes. Pat hasn't attended one and I remember Shuler going to some while Pat was in boot camp. ??? I just don't see why they sit and do nothing. All day. Or I think they should make them go to the rec or something. It's pretty useless for Pat to sit in his car close to the barracks, when they could at least let him venture to the rec and work out a little. I mean he's only a phone call away.
Enough venting. I need to make a grocery list ;)
peace♥
For anyone who doesn't know, it's a compilation of true stories from girls in relationships with their service men (I'm not sure if it's just Marine couples or not)
But the reason I'm actually blogging about it (I do plan on buying it eventually) is because I didn't know there was a site where you could publish your own books! Haha, I was excited about the book but even more excited about the site... I have to check the site out more but this might come in handy! I want to make a cook book of my fave recipes and you can do this on this site (lulu.com) I'm excited to say the least!
Pat's got back from the field yesterday! I had a feeling they would be done early. He was pretty heated about everything that had gone on in the field. I felt bad. But let's just say that was the 'funnest' night Pat and I had in a long time! If ya know what I mean ;) It was like when we were younger... I know, we're not that old -- BUT! Things have changed! Haha. I mean we've been together almost 7 years, it felt like we had already been married 4 years ago!!! I'm not complaining though, it was just nice to have 'fun' like we used too.
Today he's been standing by since he got to base. He's just laying in the car. I understand that our military might not have something to do every single day and when you think about it, active duty is like salary. They're on-call 24/7 and have no set hours of work because they aren't paid by the hour. I just don't understand how they can't find SOMETHING to do. Like, why don't they have classes they can attend like maybe ones where they get a certificate or something. Or why aren't there more first-aid classes. Pat hasn't attended one and I remember Shuler going to some while Pat was in boot camp. ??? I just don't see why they sit and do nothing. All day. Or I think they should make them go to the rec or something. It's pretty useless for Pat to sit in his car close to the barracks, when they could at least let him venture to the rec and work out a little. I mean he's only a phone call away.
Enough venting. I need to make a grocery list ;)
peace♥
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