October 28, 2010

Almost done with SOI!

We're so close! This time next week I'll be waking up soon to start our drive over night to NC. Amanda (my best friend) will be coming with me and it'll be our first long roadtrip together! I'm so excited. I can't wait to see Pat. I know I'm going to cry. And I know he'll say 'dont cry' and I'll say 'but I'm so happy to see you!' We go through this everytime. :) It sucks missing him but I'm glad I have someone like him to miss. He completes my world and there's so much I love about him. He reminds me how good my life is and how thankful I am that God put us together. I can't wait to move into our own place and spend time together like we used to before boot camp. It seems like its been forever since we've just hung out. The ten days after boot were nothing. We were too busy and too tired. We haven't even been able to "be married".

We've found a handful of houses and condos to check out when we get to NC. And we'll drive around the neighborhoods to get a feel for the area. Then from what everyone's told him, he'll most likely, but possibly not, get the ten days for moving. So I guess we'll come home after the weekend and go from there.

It's very exciting but very stressful. After the last two months, I just want to see and be with my babe. I could care less if we had to live in our car just to be together. All the excitement of moving and where to has worn off. I just want to he in his arms where I belong.
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October 19, 2010

Broken dreams, shattered hopes

=( No Hawaii. I'm devasted and a million other things. I don't even know. I really don't want to move to Lejeune. I see no good in it. I'm going to be more miserable there than I am in Youngstown. I really think Youngstown is better. I don't want to go. And I don't believe that Pat didn't have something to do with the change. He's the only one not going ? I think something's up but he's not man enough to tell me apparently. Or at least tell me the real reasons he's happy to be in Lejeune. Yes, he's happy we're not going to Hawaii and he was lying about being excited when he found out about Hawaii. TELL ME I'M WRONG PAT.

October 12, 2010

there's a thin line between coincidence and fate

Ok, we're still going to Hawaii!! No need to worry haha... He got screened for the sniper platoon and I guess he starts in 2 years or something ?? Not quite sure on the details, but its what he wanted to do from the beginning so I'm very happy for him! I've been packing and still have a lot to do :( I wish I didn't have so much stuff. But I know its better to take the stuff I have and save money by not buying all new things. I think I should be okay on clothes. I will later, have to look into getting some more pairs of shorts but for now I have two and a good amount of capris. Plus I love wearing yoga type pants and I'm comfortable enough to wear them when its ninety degrees out! I might have to save up for some more nice tank tops... But I have a lot of tshirts to get me by.


And I know, everyone says its so expensive down there... Well please remember our housing and food is paid for. They also compensate for the cost of living raise and it will. Be. Okay. Period. :)
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October 10, 2010

25 Days left of SOI!!


I still can't believe it! I still think its a cruel joke and he'll call next week and said they lied. But I guess the whole platoon got stationed there! OMG!!! I'M MOVING TO HAWAII!!!!!! I can't wait. That's so much better than North Carolina, where I really think I'd hate it. Or California,  where we would be literally in the middle of NO WHERE. I'm so excited! BUT....

I got a text from Pat a little bit ago. His libo was over at 2 and I expected not to hear from him till next week. Well... he sent me a text saying headquarters selected him for sniper platoon screening. He couldn't talk any more obviously because he was like 'tell my parents.' 'i love you bye'. I HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS!!!! Is he just accepted to try for the sniper program?! Will he still be stationed in Hawaii?!?!?! Will we have to move to NC instead?! Is it the scout sniper program?! Or what?!?!? Ughhhh I wish he hadn't told me until he got all the info and his phone back for good. =( I will be devasted if he says he won't be stationed in Hawaii now. I will lose it. I kept telling everyone the other day that there was just no way. Hawaii?? FOR REAL?! But when I heard the whole platoon got stationed there and talked to some other people and he said it had been verified, I started to believe it and get REALLY excited. And of course I still thought in the back of my head-- "Jes, you're getting you're hopes up and it's not going to really happen." I don't even know what to think now. What if he comes back tonight and gets to text me... and says he won't be able to be in Hawaii??? I will cry and cry and cry. I have never felt okay with saying "I'm moving to Jacksonville, NC. I never liked that idea. Ever. Even through boot camp, I prayed that he wouldn't get stationed there. And now to tease me?! And say he got stationed in Hawaii. I hope the Sniper program doesn't change where he'll be stationed at. I really really hope it doesn't. I can't find any info. I did find an article but it was from 2003. The sniper schooling or something like that was located at K-Bay Base. I don't know if it still is. ????? 

I just want to know if this will change where we'll be stationed at): 

k here's some stuff I found. And I assume if he got selected for "Sniper platoon screening" ... the 'screening' means it's to see if he meets the requirements? Well the requirements I found, I know Pat doesn't meet a few. Like perfect pft scores and such. He just told me he gained a half a min or something on his run time. But anyway here's what I found out about where Sniper schooling is:
wikipedia; scout sniper basic course
UGH. Lejeune is on there. I was right. I didn't know Quantico was. Quantico was nice. We went there in the beginning of the year, but I don't want to live there. And luckily I see Hawaii. 

I guess I'll just have to wait on pins and needles to find out. Thank you Marine Corps for giving me anxiety.

October 5, 2010

All by myself.

Wishing I got a honeymoon :( it feels not real when you don't go through the traditional steps of getting married. Let alone being alone, without your husband for 2 months because he had to leave 3 days after the 'wedding'. And what if we never have a real wedding? Then what... :( I'm really sad today and I feel so alone.
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October 4, 2010


Wishes the following DVDs were not missing:
1) The 5th Element
2) Twilight
3) Transformers
4) The Abyss
5) Harry Potter; Order of the Phoenix

I think those are the only ones that magically disappeared. And of course they're the ones I want to watch. Figures.

And Pat says I need to stop buying movies because I need to save money and pay my bills. Blah. I have a whole list of movies I want to buy and I'm due for a new one. Lol. Yes, I deserve one. I have to do something to pass the time while he's gone! P=


6) Constantine

=( I think I'm missing a lot of movies... I'm pretty sure Queen of the Damned is lost in oblivion too.

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October 3, 2010

Day 27 of SOI!

I can honestly say, right now, I love my life! It is perfect. Almost, all I need is Pat with me instead of states away! But it is okay. We haven't had this connection in a long time but I am so happy it's back! It's really like we started fresh and we're not holding anything back. I'm so in love with my husband. I can't wait to go on "dates" with him when he gets back and do all the fun stuff together. And I'm definitely excited to cuddle and relax with him, and you know... (=

I got boxes from work the other day so I'm going to start packing when I get off the phone with Pat! I'm excited but I'm sure it's going to stress me out a little. I have so much stuff and tons of clothes =\ I think I might put on Harry Potter or Percy Jackson; The Lightning Theif while I do it. That always puts me in a good mood. ...Although I'm kinda tired and nap sounds amazing right now!

I wish plane flights weren't so expensive or maybe we could just teleport places!! Haha. I wanna see Pat so bad!!! I'm going to be so nervous and anxious when I first see him... like when I saw him the first time on Family Day at boot camp. I'm not going to know what to do.

So much to look forward to and it's happening so fast! I'm so excited! I can't wait. I feel like we're really starting our lives now ♥

I love my hubby!