May 31, 2010

The beginning of a long situation.

I don't know how I'm going to do this without Pat. Its only been an hour and 41 minutes and I already don't know what to do with myself. I have to keep reminding myself that I can't call him and I can't talk to him... and that I won't get to see him in a few days or when I get off work... this is really happening. And it sucks. And I'm nervous that he's going to get hurt or get sent home. And if he gets discharged, for ANY reason, he's going to be a basket-case and probably suicidal. And that's really really scary for me. It ended up being a sad day. I think Pat teared up more than he wanted to. I think he was really touched by how many people actually care about him. He always thinks no one does and that no one's going to miss him when he's gone. But he's wrong. I'm glad he got to see and talk to the people he wanted to, before he left. I think it meant a lot to him.

Dad came home today! That was a nice surprise, although it will probably cause problems. Mom and Dad, will both be pissy now. And I had to half explain why I'm driving Pat's truck and not my car. And I thought I'd have the house to myself next week. Mom and Ash are going to Florida - Sunday-to-Sunday. Well, Dad's going to be home for a while. So there goes peace and quiet. Haha... not really, Dad doesn't bother me, I just can't do whatever I want now.

I have to work tonight, 8 to midnight, not too bad. I just wonder how many times I will break out in tears. I hope not a lot. Hopefully we'll be really busy and it'll go by fast and I won't think about Pat being gone. :(

[its just 13 weeks...] Please God give me strength, not to go nuts without my babe :)

I love you Pat and I know you will do your best and make us all proud!

P.S. As long as he does well at Parris Island, he should graduate August 27th!

today's the day!!

Pat leaves for bootcamp in six hours! I'm going nuts inside... its going to be hell without him. And I'm worried about what he's going to go through. I don't want him to have to experience this... but if he wants to do it, I'll support him. I just don't want him to get hurt. :) I'm happy he finally made it to this day. I just don't want him to leave. For the next three months I'm not going to feel complete, or whole. It's going to be like I'm missing half of me! I can't wait til he gets home... but he hasn't even left yet :(

Good luck Pat, I love you! you'll make a great Marine!

Happy Memorial Day everyone!

May 27, 2010

[*4 More Days*]

Pat leaves in four days... Its bittersweet. He's at MEPS right now, weighing in. I lost a day because of this, but as long as he leaves on Monday- I'm okay with it. [I guess]
Ahh... I'm a little stressed right now. Let's talk about something else.

The link I posted the other day came up in a convo I was having a with my sister. After reading the books that were on that list I was thinking things over. A really large percentage of those books, we read through out school.
Books we read in middle school(banned in libraries/schools):
Diary of a Young Girl, Scarlet Letter, Catcher in the Rye, Tom Sawyer, Huckleberry Finn

Books we read in high school (banned in libraries/schools):
Grapes of Wrath, Animal Farm, To Kill a Mockingbird, Of Mice and Men, Lord of the Flies

And not to mention the books we performed in school plays or that are performed in public playhouses:
Oliver Twist, Les Misérables

How does that make sense? If my child(if I ever have one) likes to read, by all means- they will be able to read what ever they choose at the apprpriate age. I just don't understand how BOOKS can be banned for multiple/different reasons... when the movies and tv shows on TV RIGHT NOW, show children more than what a book can write about. ??

In other book news: I received in the mail my books I ordered from Amazon!! Yay!
I got Erich von Daniken's, Chariots of the Gods. The Words of Gandhi. And Henry Rollins' Black Coffee Blues. I'm excited, to say the least! :)

May 20, 2010

"I wanna be the minority."

PAT "Bedroom it is.
That's what your dad and I had.
Oh, that sounds bad..."

Just got done watching the Bernie Mac Show and folding clothed...[I love days off] Bernie was just what I needed too, he's hilarious. RIP Bernie♥

Pat will be leaving soon. Theres a lot I need to do before he leaves, mostly move my stuff back to my house. It's hard to do when he doesn't want to go over there though. blahhhh

I've been on a little bit of a spending spree... especially on Amazon. Today I ordered (for my dvd collection) In the Army Now! Haha, I know its a stupid movie but its funny. I also ordered 'Chariots of the Gods' which is going to be a good read. I got hooked after watching Ancient Aliens on the History Channel. And I bought a book by Ghandi and a book by Henry Rollins. I can't wait (:

just saw the preview for Eclipse (Twilight), didn't know it was coming out this soon... I want to see it in Imax. Pat won't be home to see it with me :(

May 13, 2010

[So addicted to, all the things you do]

I don't have much to say.

I have a TON to say.

Pat didn't leave. Some BULLSHIT about not sending poolees who were going to be active Marines... they only could send poolees who were going to be reservists... Yea... Its screwed a lot up. And its like they are screwing him purposely. I don't know how much I like them anymore. Not that I ever did. Ugh so much has happened. And most of its been VERY stressful. And still is. I don't even want to talk about my car right now. Later. A lot later, I might.

I do want to advise everyone I found this sweet site, CafePress and they have a lot of cool shirts, cups, bags, magnets, etc. ALSO, I opened up a 'store' on their site! You can design stuff, its so cool! my store is: JeskaStyle make sure you check it out and buy some stuff hahaa.. I'm still figuring stuff out but I have a few designs. Don't worry, I'll remind you when I get more stuff up :)

I still haven't gotten a new laptop and that's beginning to make my life hell. I can't do anything when I want to. I always have to wait until I go to Mom's. And you would think Mr. Carey, being a computer wiz and working at a major computer company... well you would think they would have a good computer at their house! But no... only his work computer is Awesome. Stephen and Patrick's is horrible and breaking down.


I'm trying to make Ash a CD, but not having much luck because I have so much other stuff I need to do too. And its not just a normal mix for her. Its a special Remember When... Its going to be great. All kinds of songs we used to listen to :))) Bring back good memories. ♥

I have so much I need to just vent about but it would take up way to much on one post... its not like anyone really reads my stuff anyway, but I know they wouldn't read something that kept scrolling and scrolling and scrolling... I will definitely TRY to post more :) for my own health lmao... . . . . . . . . .

Some 'Right Nows':
Still loving and probably always will: Lady Gaga
--and bonus, Lady Gaga and Beyonce!! L♥ve it!
Song: Rude Boy-Rihanna
Wants to go to a concert Baaadddd.
Not doing so great on weight/exercise... :(
Umm... did I tell ya'll about our little vacay to Washington DC and the Marine Corp Museum?? I'll have to update and make a slideshow :)
Umm... check out jubie1o on youtube for some of my videos!