waiting on the world to change.

There were a few things I wanted to vent about, but since I decided to wait to write about them, I forgot. Its probably better this way... shouldn't stress over stupid things or things that are out of your hands. Right? But its hard not to when they directly affect you and your future. I hate change. Ugh. Whatever.

Although I should have went with Pat to the Y, I didn't. I need to start going, bad. I quit smoking and gained weight within the first 3 days, I swear! And the lack of exercise doesn't help. I feel overwhelmed with my weight though. And I'm always hungry... which doesn't help! I'm at mom's house though (she's not home, luckily) and I played Wii Sports and started the Wii Fit. I did yoga, stepping, and a ton of balance games. My back hurts a little now, but surprisingly I wasn't hungry after! I think yoga might be what I need! And of course, watching what I eat.

I'm going to take a shower in a few and probably pass out, I'm really tired. (Probably has something to do with staying up late and drinking at Jenn's!) But we had a great time! We played wii over there too. They have more games and one of them had curling!! It was fxcking awesome! And archery- it made me want to go out and shoot bow and arrows for real! And she has the Wii Resort, which has a ton of games on it too! Now I want to play it ALL THE TIME! I think I'm going to have to tell Mom about these ones so she buys them for her!

Well I shouldn't waste anymore time. ♥ luvvyaa.

Drum roll please...

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I got my new car! I am now a proud owner of a . . . .
BMW!

I have pictures but I haven't had time to upload them. I actually didn't have time to blog about my NEW CAR, until know! We got lucky, it was one of the cars I told you were sold before we could even see it. The guy before us couldn't get financed or something! I was excited but hesitant when Pat told me we were going to see it. I didn't know if it would be what I wanted and I didn't know if I'd like it. But I LOVED IT! Its dark blue and a four door. (I didn't really like the style of the two doors) Its a 323i, the small v6 or Pat's pretty sure they consider it a 6 cylinder, not even a v6. But that's okay with me. I love fast cars but mine's luxurious and comfortable and it has SLAPSTICK! So I'm totally content. Every once in a while I wish it was a little faster, but it just makes me want to save my money so I can get a brand new BMW later :) It is a 2000, and I know you might be thinking, "Wow, 10 year old car?". Well I don't care what you say, you haven't driven a 10 year old car like this! It rides like its brand new, has no problems anywhere, body or engine! The leather is a little worn but everything else is like mint-condition! I thank God every day that we found this car and got lucky!! And it turns out my insurance company made a mistake-- in my favor! So I made out double time! I really do think my luck changed on this one. At first I thought because of the way things were going at the beginning of the year, it was going to be another bad one. But things changed! I have a lot to be thankful for and I'm not taking any of it for granted!

I also want to tell you. . . .

I PASSED MY STNA TEST!!!!!

I am now a State Tested Nurses Aide! I'm so happy! I was so stressed and was convinced I failed my skills for a second time. And it was bothering me because I KNOW, I know what I'm doing! But I passed! I can now write my name as Jessica Mondora, STNA!

AGHHH!! :) I am loving life right now! But... I can't be too over confident. I don't know where I'm going to apply, what I'm going to do the rest of the year, or what's going on with Pat and bootcamp.
He didn't leave on February 8th. And he won't be leaving for another month. And then what? There's three months of waiting until he gets back, then another month or two... its throwing everything off track and I don't know what to do! There's so much I want to do, but I can't!

Its a little stressful but I don't feel as stressed as I was at the beginning of the year. Anything can happen though. I'm going to take it as it comes and make the best out of everything. ♥

Love you all,
Jessica, STNA
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Car Shopping!

So, I still am looking for a car! Its been forever, or at least it feels that way. I'm having no luck at all. There's nothing out there. Nothing worth buying and nothing good enough to buy. Thanks Cash for Clunkers. YOU SCREWED ME! And not to mention, car values went up. Went up a lot since last February when I bought my Bravada. I was given about $3000 more than what I paid for my Bravada. Yea, I made out nicely, but try finding a good vehicle with low/decent mileage, that isn't a piece of crap, that is WORTH keeping for more than 2 years... chyea. Okay. Its really frustrating. Although, a few times we have came across some REALLY good finds... but they were so good, unheard of good, that they were sold before we could even look at them or my mother got involved. Yes, my mother. She doesn't understand the car economy right now. Which its not like she searches online for cars all day long! So she has know information, but she won't listen to Pat and believe that he actually KNOWS what he's talking about. And when she doesn FINALLY come around, its too late! We're going to see these BMWs sometime this week so I will be back with some good news, hopefully.

On the other hand. If I ever win the lottery, I know exactly what cars I want. I really like the new Buick Lacrosse. The CXS is really sweet, I like the body style and all the options. After building "my" Lacrosse on their website, I'd need about $42,000 :) It would be a cool car to own. There's also brand new BMWs, Aston Martins, Benz's, and of course, my Jaguar- that I've always wanted! I have high hopes I know. But its okay to dream! Maybe one day my wishes will come true. [anything can happen]

Pat and Dad are watching the Super Bowl, I'm listening but not really caring. I hope the Saints win though!

♥ Sunday Funday!
[mwah]

p.s. WE GOT 16inches of SNOW the other day! ! ! I loved it! We might get another 6inches on Tuesday! :D The snow is the highest I have ever seen it in my life! I ♥ winter!