July 29, 2008

"my life's like AGHHHHH!"

I'm soo pissed!!!!!!!!!!

Just go back to Tennessee!!!!!!!!!

Just go back to him!!!!!!!!

Just go to Salem!!!!

I don't want to see ANYONE!

July 27, 2008

Giving credit.

I noticed Rihanna's music and sound has gotten more edgy, confident, and daring but I didn't expect her videos to go that far. Her last couple videos are different from what I expected from her. She is forming her own image and definetly isn't conforming. I give her credit for trying different things and not being afraid. Showing who she is in her videos is something not always easily done. But, sometimes you can go too far. And when the audience doesn't look at picture from an artistic point of view- sometimes the thing they see will not make sense. Seem too unrealistic. Too different. Too unacceptable. Too scary?

Rihanna's music video; Disturbia

July 19, 2008

lovely love

The Human Touch

'Tis the human touch in this world that counts,
The touch of your hand and mine,
Which means far more to the fainting heart
Than shelter and bread and wine;
For shelter is gone when the night is o'er,
And bread lasts only a day,
But the touch of the hand and the sound of the voice
Sing on in the soul alway.

Spencer Michael Free

July 17, 2008


Families are complicated. And mine is pretty damn crazy. Its hard to think I haven't learned anything from them. I'd be lying if I said that. I have learned enough to know where I got my strong traits and where my weak ones came from too. I just don't know if I'm ready to admit that I see our connection. I see where I might be just like my parents when I reach there age. Its a scary thought. You think, "No, I'm my own person". But I've realized I really am like my mother and father. And I can't guarantee that I won't think the way they do or follow in their foot steps. And I know it may scare my boyfriend or even my friends, but I don't know how to prove to anyone that I'm not going to be that way. I don't even know. I can't even convince myself!

In the end whatever happens, happens. I keep telling myself "its your choice, you decide what you do". I'm not going to put the blame on anyone but myself. Because I still have the power to choose my actions. And I can't regret the things I choose or do, I just have to learn from them.

July 12, 2008

s0 excited!

after time and time again, i got so frustrated with finding damn layouts for my blog! everytime i'd find a decent one it wouldn't work, or i wouldn't have the patience to go through and do that thing where you save it to the computer and upload it on here... it made my damn head hurt!! and they never worked! (mind you, i am pretty html-savvy. i know some stuff) but for some reason i'd get so pissed i'd say F IT! welllll..... I FOUND SOME LAYOUTS! =) i'm so excited!


my head's going to explode.
i need a break.
i'm tired of people.
go away.

i need pat to come home.
i dont know if he can fix anything.
but he sure can try.

i need a fucking day off.

July 9, 2008

long summer days

This summer has been pretty busy. Crazy things have happened, goals have been re-evaluated, time has been spent relaxing with people I love. My honey has decided to join the marines. That's kinda scary, but I support him 100%. He's always wanted to do it and I know he's doing it for the right reasons. I'm actually excited for him and looking forward to what our future will be like. :) I've been doing research and looking at different options for school and what I'm going to do with my life. I haven't decided on anything for sure and I really have to look at the financial part. If I screw up, I'll be in more debt, and I'd need to work some more to save money up BEFORE I decided anything. But I'm hopeful. I have been putting it off though. But I'm enjoying life and working and that's all that matters, for the moment.